shutup 'n' read

ready, set, go !

2009-06-10T17:45:00.000+08:00

ready, set, go !

Okay, I know I've been gone for some time.. for a long time... blah blah blah XD
I was busy with stuffs all over the net especially in Facebook. :)
updates on the way !!

remember my post about the guy I love, o yeah ! he's courting me nao ! :D
that's what's new.. but we're having problems though. =|

anyways, I haven't started watching Clannad yet.
My dad got mad for staying up late just watching animes the whole
day, our electric bill went up up up !! :))

My friend suggested another anime I haven't tried watching the 1st ep either
it's too delicate I might get a new addiction. LOL

but if you want to try it out here's the title:: Da Capo **clickable**

I can't seem to go to crunchryoll so yeah, I dun't know what episode is now available
except for the latests epi I've watched which is Epi 80-82 I think ? XD

schoolis about to start and expect more late entries. =P
but I hope to keep visiting though.

lots of hugs and kisses !!

ja ~ !!

summer bummer

2009-04-24T13:23:00.000+08:00

summer bummer

there, again as you can see it's been long. :))
well, it's because i was too lazy to type..

okay, i've been nusy with texting nowadays..

because of this so called clan that i joined in..

P H C C ( Pahardcore Clan) :))
that clan is the clan for gm addicts..

so there, that's were i've been spending almost all

of my time and all of my MONEY !!

o yea !! summer's a bummer..

gaah !! since when did summer became cold !!

come on ! ugh... i can't enjoy it that much because of

the weather change.. (I hate climate change)

sudden changes in weather made me sick.. shit !!

i currently have cough and colds err...

and it is suc burden for me..

i can't breathe freely and i can't sing that much...

grr !!! hate it !!!! curse you rain !!! T_T

anime update :]

::: SHUGO CHARA :::

episode 79 is now out in crunchyroll for members

and will be out in publice for free in 20 hours ;]

but if you can't wait any longer go to youtube :)

::: KANON :::

i have finished it ! at last !!! it's really a nice anime..

it's not your typical fighting type of anime...

it really does revolves around LOVE..

a must watc anime series.. ;] 24 episodes only.. :)

::: CHOBITS :::

finally done !! :)

o yeah ! marathon.. also about love

but with a cute twist ^^ i guess most of you already know this

anime right ?? :))

::: SUMOMOMO MOMOMO :::

i'll be having a recap on this later...

gonna repeat episode 2. i lost track of the story already.. :))

been busy watching chobits and kanon.. :)

really funny !!! put the stress away !!

watch sumomomo momomo

::: CLANNAD :::

next on my list !! ^^

personal update

i have my own facebook already !! :]

click here

add me up guys !! :)

ja !! ~~

home at last

2009-04-12T18:17:00.000+08:00

home at last

I finally am home.. :)
actually I was back yesterday.. lol
just got lazy of going online because I was so
tired of our trip. :)

We left Mexico, Pampanga at 6am and arrived Candaba, Pampanga by 7:15 to
pick up some of our relatives who are on the same way as we are.. :)
then we arrived manila by 8:30 am... so early !!

Okay, now about my vacation..
My first 2 days there wasn't good really...
nothing to do, so hot, so bored.T_T
but good things started to happen after that..
getting colder every night, planning our trips, went to other relatives, went to the mall, etc.
but the best thing in my vacay is our swimming ! yay !
a great relief from HOTNESS. lol.
I even ran onto some of my friends here in Manila.. :))

Today
Enough yesterday and the day before that..
let's talk about today..
today is sunday so I went to church.
after that nothing else to do so that ends up to
being online ! :)
I checked my friendster and replied to my unanswered comments
and finally watched the latest episode of Shugo Chara Doki !
Episode 77 is now available in crunchyroll.com
I also finished Kanon. it was really good .
from the very beginning until the last episode. :)
you really have to watch it !!! I swear !!
next stop while waiting for Episode 78 & 79 of Shugo Chara Doki!
is Chobits and Clannad. :)

Today is a special day for my friends

+Ian Abanilla
+Raymond (whose surname I don't don't know) *peace outs

Tanjobi Omedeto !! :)

till here !!

Sayo !! :) (bye)

bye

2009-04-05T13:00:00.001+08:00

bye

yay ! it's finally vacation for me ! :)
I'll be leaving this 2 in the afternoon...
we'll be staying at Pampanga for the rest of the holy week.
it means i'll be out for a week.. i'll be missing the stuffs i do
here in manila.. XD

well, it's also good for me to be out.. hahaha
good thing episode 77 of Shugo Chara Doki! will be available on saturday..
and i'll be home by then. ;) just in time.. yay !

just got finished with episode 10 in Kanon and episode 2 in sumomomo momomo,suzumiya haruhi no yuutsu and clannad... when i get back i'll start Chobits episode 1 !! hahaha
so much for this summer.. gotta make it worth it. :))

hmm.. since i'll be out all my accounts (friendster,facebook,myyearbook,ym,blogger,multiply)
will be inactive for a while.. even just for 6 days. ;)
finally, i get the time to rest from all these high tech gadgets that makes me stressed. :))

1 hour to go and i'm off to pampanga.. see yah all when i get back !!
updates on saturday or maybe on sunday already..
i've got to rest too you know.. TCCIC !!! (take care 'coz i care) ;)

cha!! ne.. :)

contented

2009-04-04T23:08:00.000+08:00

contented

I started my day pretty late. lol. overslept again.. "as usual"
though morning wasn't my usual one.. it was a bit cold
since it rained for at least more than an hour before I woke up.

it's saturday as you all know if you read most of my entries,
what I do during saturday is choir practice and study of organ.
so again that's already a routine..

after that I went straight back home to watch some anime.
unfortunately the anime i'm currently watching (Shugo Chara Doki!) isn't available yet.
since I was so fast I'm already in episode 77. lol. that episode is not yet available
in the philippines how pathetic. so I decided to search for a new anime to get
started with before I watch Chobits again... I searched for Comedy, Romance genre of anime.
so there a few came out and I checked them out.. but only 4 got my attention badly.

1. Kanon

2. Clannad

3. Suzumiya Haruhi no Yuutsu

4. Sumomomo Momomo

you've got to check those out.. but before you check sumomomo momomo you need to have
a great and wide understanding.. ;) hahaha :))
those four animes are mostly about love and school life so you can connect to it
somehow.. enjoy viewing those animes.. well, join me in my hapiness. lol.
okay it's pretty late. :) i have to sleep.. OYASUMINASAI!!

2009-03-31T11:33:00.000+08:00

this summer I have been thinking what to do. :))
haha. now problem solved. ;)
I've been watching Shugo Chara. the idea started as I remember my
friends talking about this anime.. and I wonder if it really is a good one to watch..
I started watching it last wednesday. and now as far as i know I want to finish it..
hahaha !! i love it.. "cool & spicy" <----- most famous line ;)
now i'm in episode 47 and i'm not the only one watching it.
as i watch this anime ate ning (helper) joined in. LOL
she loved it as much as I do. we won't be stopped from what we're doing.
hahaha !! but still planning to have a swimming party. "sorth of"
if not by this week maybe the next week... and if not a swimming party
maybe sleep overs will do as long as me and my friends will be together.
haha. okay that's all for now !!

cha !

friends

2009-03-27T12:52:00.001+08:00

friends

I can really feel that it's already summer. The weather is extreme, nothing to do, oversleeping and lazy to move. I hate it when times like this comes. I get tired for doing absolutely nothing. What I hate most

is that I'm not with my friends, which is a great sorrow to me.

This summer, we're planning to have a swimming party (sorth of) this coming week.

We're still looking for a place though. :)

this morning one of my friend and barkada, mavie, gave me a gift. :)

it wasn't any material. Instead she gave me a site.. :) she made it..

it was touching since it includes a message for me.. It made my eyes

teary, and I realized that somehow I touched their lives.. Because I thought

I was a useless person. That I haven't done anything for my friends. But for what

mavie did, she proved me wrong. I really love my friends so much !

I would do anything just to make them happy... I never had these kind of friends

until now. "Azumanga Hachi" is such a blessing for me.

Even though we have different traits and different religions that didn't hinder us

in being one. We always have misunderstandings but never became a BIG DEAL to us.

Most of us have known each other for a long time. some of us were known not that long yet.

But still we made a bond that is unbreakable.

source :

Rosele Evangelista (for the illustration)

what if ?

2009-03-24T20:06:00.001+08:00

what if ?

today was a tiring but happy day. even though i didn't go to school
and didn't join my friends today...
it was so hot as in sizzling hot. I don't feel comfortable..

In the middle of the day I texted everyone in my group list...
okay, my crush replied.. (the one on the pic)
my crush is actually my bestfriend.. I call him "asawa co" and calls me back
the same thing, :)

so we started texting and stuffs.. asking different things about
each other and so on.. Until it comes to the point that I opened
the 'lovelife' topic. Since I know that he knows that he's my crush..
I can't help it but tell it again to him and asking him...
He has a girlfriend at the moment but not really that serious..
so I told him how I feel with my crush... and he said how he feels about me..

he asked me why I didn't tell it to him earlier.. because something would have
happened if I did. :)
my heart pounded really hard. I don't know what to do .. I felt happy and worried and excited and sad.
in short mixed emotions..

I felt sad knowing that I had a chance but didn't grab it earlier that's why someone took
him away from me and he'll be flying to America, he asked me if I can wait for him to come back ?
i told him yes. and asked again.. even if it would take years... and i still answered yes.

he told me that if could not wait any longer I should find another person while waiting for him.
so that my love won't go to waste. :)

sweet !!! okay I don't know what will happen next. since I'm still
texting with him..

update you tomorrow. :)

cha !

bestfriend

2009-03-23T19:16:00.001+08:00

bestfriend

today nothing much happened.
we took our post tests on major subjects.
we found it not that hard but somehow confusing making
it harder than it looks like. :)

we,the non-competitors, did our practical exam in P.E which is
the dance Lacucaracha . :)

It was hard since a lot of the steps have been changed.

after a tiring school work we ate at Midcentre Haven .
we did stuffs that we can't do inside the room and school.. LOL
But after we ate most of the azumanga hachi went to tom's world to
hang-out , play , and waste money. :))

since they were gone, me,rosele, and lara talked about certain problems we're having.
During our conversation rosele opened up her deeper feelings.
It was her first time to tell something that so serious..

It was about mavie. She treats mavie as her bestfriend but she doesn't feel
that mavie treats her the same. So she shared this feelings first to april. Unfortunately
april decided to tell it to mavie, because she thinks that it would be better if
mavie will know how rosele feels. Rosele got angry actually not really angry but
she felt bad about april telling her secret. because she opened up to her and trusted her
but she failed. Now that mavie knows how rosele feels , rosele doesn't know how to
approach mavie anymore. She's having a hard time and she feels awkward talking to her.

we felt her pain and self-pity.

we never thought that we will have this kind of problem
in our group. But someday, it'll be finished without us noticing it. :)

that's all !!

cha ! :)

happy and contented :)

2009-03-22T08:57:00.005+08:00

happy and contented.

I met new friends in friendster.
namely tess, ryyan, peter, and shin.. actually there's a lot more
but they're my closest so far.
they're nice and friendly and rich too !!
which I'm not. :))

okay let's go to the main event..
we're currently at our last days in school.
actually tomorrow is our final day but we can still
go to school if we wish to. :)

I'm happy for my friends who are competitors
since they got into the honorable.. :))
ellaine (7th) april (10th) rosele(13th)
congratulations !! after some problems we had it made a
good and successful outcome. :D

okay, I'm bored again. nothing much to do.. since it's already summer.
might as well focus on my guitar and piano lessons and might take up
summer jobs. LOL. planning to have swimming parties with my friends
and a few meet ups with my online buddies. :D
I'll be making this summer a productive one. =)

cha !

2009-03-07T16:09:00.003+08:00

when someone leaves, someone new will come

Yesterday, my idol/crush/favorite the master rapper just passed away.
So sad. We (me and my mom) even thought that he looks so cool and he doesn't
look that he's getting old. His death is such a sad/tragic thing to know.
I hope a lot learned from him, and made him as their inspiration for good deeds and
for fighting in whatever problems and illness they are encountering in this life.

news source:
gmanews.tv

welcome home !

This nearing April 2009, my mm confirmed that she'll be paying a visit.
yey. I missed her so much. I am happy that I'll be seeing her again but I feel scared at the same time. Knowing that I got a low grade this 3rd grading, which my dad doesn't even know even though he's here with me, makes me scared. Since both my parents are expecting a lot
from me. They think that I'm smart so they expect grades no lower than 85 at least.
This 3rd grading I experienced lost of interest in studying. I don't know why but I did.
So this resulted to low grades in Filipino & Computer. Can you even believe that ? it includes
computer. ugh. I'm so ashamed of myself. I just hope my mom and dad would understand me.

love.love.love

Finally, I gave up on love. hahaha.
well yeah I did. So tired of getting hurt everyday.
WHAT THE ?!!? well, not really everyday but it seems like it. XD
And besides, I'm loving my life now. More about my friends, my family
and my studies I guess. :)
and I don't need it at the moment. I even promised myself after my last breakup is that
I'll be having my next boyfriend when I turn 18. :)

UPDATE

+ new person in my links." yanyan" please check her blog out.
+ new browser game that I find cool. OurWorld
please check out the game. see yah there. I'm shiro08.
+ needing new friends in friendster. +. profile .+ --click !
add me up please. thanks !

CHA !!

together again :)

2009-02-21T11:50:00.003+08:00

together again :)

after for not writing for a long time, here I am once again... :)
okay this week has been really mind bugging and exhausting.
Because it's the last quarter everybody has been working on their
final projects and requirements especially the candidates for honors
and KHK.

In the middle of those things one horrible thing happened.
The mother of our classmate just past away.
Nevermind how she died, because it was tragic !

This happening made us one again. As our section felt the pain
our classmate is feeling. And because of this, their family was
once again complete after a long time.

Okay, now let's go to the present..
I didn't sleep. XD
we friends and classmates stayed at the
dead's place to again give comfort to our
classmate. We enjoyed this day even though we didn't get
enough sleep and rest. We did a lot of things and talked
about stuffs we cannot discuss in our classroom, watched Exorcism of Emily Rose
in a portable DVD player, and picture taking at the empty street.

It was a new experience to me. Now I know how it feels like when you didn't
get any sleep at all. :)
It's nice that even you lost someone, you know that a lot is there
to provide you the care and love.

that's all.. gotta go !
I will still go somewhere.

cha !

apologizing

2009-01-22T21:46:00.003+08:00

apologizing... :(

a lot of things happened to me these past few days..
but I wasn't able to update you guys.. so sorry.
and it's now late, so I'll update you all tomorrow. XD
I'll tell you absolutely everything.. :)
hope you understand me.
muaa. :)

2008-12-18T09:52:00.002+08:00

teacher's day

today we are celebrating teacher's day...and yes I am once again absent in the event...
I'm too lazy to go, :P I'm bad right?!
so bored at the moment...

12-16-08
me and lara decided to give up on love.. :P
because we're tired of getting hurt always..
perhaps forgetting it will make us feel better..
and we're still young for this stuff.. XD

update
added new link.. :) mara..
my bestfriend..

just a random day :))

2008-12-13T11:35:00.003+08:00

just a random day :))

*sigh*
I didn't go to school this friday.. :P
it was raining and I got lazy.. :P
so my dad invited me to go shopping at 168 mall..
haha!! cheap ?! well, yeah ! XD
haha!! and today is saturday!
wooot!! wala lang.. XD
I'm just so happy today.. :]
because of... nothing.. XD
i'm absolutely crazy today.. :]

BTW

chiui will be using her new link now..
http://chiui.voidskies.net/
thanks!! :]

Intramurals week !!

2008-12-11T13:30:00.004+08:00

Intramurals week !!
yes it's currently our intramurals week :]
i'm so happy... we had our championship games today
and we won in both basketball and volleyball games :]
it is something that we can be proud of again :)
but it doesn't end there... today is also the finals of the pop dance..
unfortunately I'm absent.. :P
I don't have enough voice and I need to reserve
it for saturday's event ;]
but I'll attend school on friday!!
and I can't miss that day... besides the fact that it's the last day of our intamurals
it is also the day we'll here the finalists of the Battle of the Bands play ;]
so excited for that day !! go blue team !!

sick and tired

2008-12-09T20:59:00.001+08:00

sick and tired

yea. as the title implies..
i am sick and tired.. :P
sick as in literally sick :P
my throat hurts badly which I hate
because i can't speak and sing
when i talk nothing comes out except
for the air.. :P

what matters most is why and what am I tired of.. :P

yes, i am finally tired..
of loving people who don't give my love back.. I feel such a waste..
everything I give and gave was wasted..
when will I learn?? xP
i pity myself.. :|

20 things about LOVE

2008-11-27T21:06:00.001+08:00

20 things about L.O.V.E

Ayon kay Bob Ong:

1. "Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya.."

2. "Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba."

3. "Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang."

4. "Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na."

5. "Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang

pansinin."

6. "Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din."

7. "Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang."

8. "Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa."

9. "Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang."

10. "Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una."

11. "Hindi porke't madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan

kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa."

12. "Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon,

mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng

kapareha dahil lang maganda o nakakalibog ito. Totong mas mahalaga ang

kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga

crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka."

13. "Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay,

kasi hindi ikaw ang priority."

14. "Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida

sa script na pinili nya."

15. "Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag

nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang

makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo."

16. "Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa

paggawa ng wala"

17. "Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng

hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan"

18. "Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin

ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo.

Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang

hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit?

Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo

sa buhay!

Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na

hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng

nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!"

19. "Pakawalan mo yung mga bagay na nakakasakit sa iyo kahit na

pinasasaya ka nito. Wag mong hintayin ang araw na sakit na lang ang

nararamdaman mo at iniwan ka na ng kasiyahan mo."

20. "Gamitin ang puso para alagaan ang mga taong malalapit sa iyo.

Gamitin ang utak para alagaan ang sarili mo."

tiring and happy saturday!

2008-11-22T19:12:00.001+08:00

tiring but a happy saturday!

haha! wii.. i'm back! hmp. whew!
i don't know how to start my entry.. XD
pft! i'm so pathetic :P

ok now. hmm. as usual 1st things first
bfast,lunch then choir practice.. =)
right after straight in front of PC.. haha! XD
then started textin people from CMLI..
then one of my CD mates.. asked me if I wanted to join
a clan for CMLI-ers.. so I said yes because of
this so called 'boredom' haha!!
there my happiness started.. =)
i met new people from CMLI.. and one of them named 'justin' from
lourdes school of mandaluyong.. his name and school sounded
familiar when he introduced himself.. XD
then trying to remember him while looking at his pictures
I found out that he was the one who ate with us the
last dinner of our convention =D

typical sunday..Ü

2008-11-09T15:22:00.003+08:00

typical sunday..Ü

hmm.. it's sunday..
and my usual sunday starts with
a worship service 6:45 am so I wake up
5:50 to prepare my stuffs and drink coffee.. :)
after the worship service, I do my duties :]
then it's time for me to enjoy myself in front of the
computer or by going to a mall with my dad or friends :)
and it ends there.. XD

UPDATE

chiui = new site.. :) click!
I have my new tagboard.. :) *please drop.. :)

ok.I still have classes tomorrow.. (*sigh* classes again xP)
see yah!! :)

CMLI - an experience I won't forget

2008-11-03T17:24:00.003+08:00

CMLI - an experience I won't forget

I told you about a convention in my past post right?! well.. it happened... so this is a post mostly about that convention..

okay.. I noticed that most of my friends from CMLI posted their CMLI experience.. except for me..
now here I go.. =)

this was my first time to attend a convention.. so I'm kinda' new to the stuffs we did back there.
ok. at first I didn't expect to have this many friends from different places.. and schools..
it was all too impossible for me.. but good heavens! I met so many and be friend with a few..
but at least.. it's a good start for me ayt?!

lol.. what I like most about this CMLI convention is that I learned so much from
other people, not just the people I've known for quite a long time...

it's like I'm in a new and wider world where I get to keep in touch with different
people from the different corners of the Philippines which doesn't happen all the time..

it's somehow amazing pulling off that many people to one place in a certain time..

I won't ever forget my trademark in this CMLI.. xD

ZOMG!! 8O LOLx.. xD

people have been remembering my name because of my voice..
I got problems with my throat back then.. xD

and they were like.. "ikaw si ina diba? yung paos?!"
then I was like giggling while saying yes.. xD

sheesh! xD

I really loved my friends from cd # 3.. \m/
we rock! LOLx.. xD because of them I had the confidence
to face other people and to hang-out with someone who is a complete stranger to me. XD

this convention really boosted my self-confidence.. =)
it is something I could treasure all of my life and something that I could be proud of. :)

and since I'm a 3rd year student.. I'll be still seeing some of them and might as well you next year! :)
and I will make it more fun, and more worth keeping in memory!!
let's make most out of it!! =)

too bad! I still can't join the disco socials.. since we're not allowed..
boohoo.. =(

well, let's just party even though it's not the disco socials!!

to those who will graduate already..
I will miss you all.. especially those who are from Comm #3..
if you can visit and hang-out for a while there.. please do so..
I will miss a lot if you won't be there.. x(

and again!!

SEE YOU NEXT CMLI EXPERIENCE!!!

to see pictures of the activity you can always drop by and view our pictures
here in : CMLI 2008 Convention... [the golden batch]
CD 3.. ayii.. Ü

you can also comment in my multiply site if you have an account there.. :)
you can also add me as contact if you want.. xD

and you can also post your comments here in blogger by giving a comment in this post. :)

TC all!

BIZZY week!

2008-10-04T09:16:00.003+08:00

BIZZY week!

whew! what a week, and again I've been away here
for quite a ng time.. XD oh well..
my week was all stressful and high pressured. LOL
ok I know you think that I am overacting.. but really it was stressful ang full of pressure.. XD
we had our eliminatons for the cultural presentation and Ms. earth then semifinals of Quizbee and Spelling bee then lesson and GSP & BSP stuffs then new contests coming this week.. woosh!
hmm.. teachers expects a lot from our section that's why we're very pressured! it's beacuase
we're the special section, but we're still normal though.. XD weee... ok enough with the sad part..

last week my old classmate,old co-writer, and old friend went back here in the philippines. YEY~!
she came from Alameda,CA.. wow! =)) haha! and of course we were all happy and excited ...
she's my classmate now.. yay! *again.. :]]

yay.. that's all! XD haha!! =]]

UPDATE

I'll be going to baguio this coming october 25-29 if our letter to the president of the school will be approved. It is a convention in Teacher's Camp Baguio.. goodluck to me! XD

hectic...

2008-09-05T19:41:00.004+08:00

hectic...

so then again.. late updates bout' me..
like what the title says..
my sched is hectic.. *sigh*
It is now the start of our second grading period..
which means more work and more
time to spend at school than home and
malls. .. XP
but I'm very excited for this grading period
because I'll be having "photojournalism" for my journalism
subject which I have experienced already!
yay! so I'm hoping for higher grades..
though I still don't know my grade in journalism
for the first G.P since our report cards will be
deliberated next week Friday.

so I guess that's all for now. =)

UPDATES

chui - updated her link =)
anna - added in my links
i'll be changing my link soon! XD
i'm getting better in japanese! yay! ME!

so toodles!!

SAYONARA!!

lovin' life

2008-08-01T14:37:00.008+08:00

lovin' life

sorry for late update.

I've been really busy and I'm trying my best

to keep this alive and updated it's just i don't have enough time. =)

so here I am with my updates =)

but i'll be giving updates on memorable dates only. x)

July 25,2008

my birthday. I turned 15. =)

and the day started as I go to my friend's house (my scholmate) they

greeted me. blah blah.. as I arrive the classroom I saw the board with

notes for me.. "July 25,2008... birtdey ni potpot!

matanda ka na, pa-burger ka naman! hehe.

pi bidey!" <--- coming from my bestfriend lara

"nai! nasan ang pagkaen?! hehe!

hapi birtdey" <--- coming from one of my barkada. =)

it was also our cookfest, and I am one of the cook so I cooked the food

we will be eating and the food for the contest. We won as the 3rd placer.

We played pepsi-7up, a very old game we never played since we reached our teenage years.

Everybody had fun. We even have a video and some pictures. If I uploaded it I will be posting it here. =)

July 31,2008

finals of the jingle making contest, and my section is one of the finalists.

It started almost 9 am and we won as the champion.

here are some previews of our jingle..

we were very thankful that we won. wooosh!

ciao!

2008-06-14T10:19:00.003+08:00

ciao!

hello. :]
just dropping an update on me.
school have started this week.. last tuesday (June 10)
and my section was the top section again..
so i'll be expecting a lot of HIGH expectations
from our teachers... and most of my classmates
are already my friends, so i guess i won't be having that much
problem. =) I've decided to make a story about this S.Y
cause' 3 days of bonding, everyone in my class seems
like they were been friends for a long time.. =)
and i admire looking at them.. chit-chatting..
and playing jjokes on one another..
it's so fun. :]

good luck to me! :)

APOLOGY !

2008-05-31T19:55:00.004+08:00

APOLOGY !

*sighs*
I'm back into being inactive gaah!!
I hate it when this time comes.. xP
So this is what happened to me the past days...
a while ago...
I went to an anniversarry party, then right after that
I went to Dencios at greenhills to celebrate the birthday
of my uncle. :] it was actually yesterday but we're all
busy that day so we moved the celebration..

a week ago...
I kept on reading advanced in chemistry. xP
because my aunt says so. :] uhm..
I also started reading World History. x]
gaah!! I guess I'll be having a hard time studying.. xD

Announcement

alia[liam_liam] changed her link so to those who linked her you might wanna change those links. ;]

---------->TG Member of the day<-------------

will be removed. :] *sighs* since I won't be OL
everyday..

doodles..

2008-05-07T23:09:00.003+08:00

doodles..

i'm too lazy to post today. it's kinda late. it's already 11 pm. :P
uhm for the past 2 days i didn't post an entry cause' monday i went somehwere and tuesday i went to pampanga. :P

so that's why. i wasn't at TG board most of the day so i can't choose a member of the day!

today's TG would be
buena(Music`s Paradise) she made me happy and she's really nice. mua!

chin-is also nice and made me happy. thanks for making my story an inspiration, ;]
kisses!

Sunday, May 4,'08

2008-05-04T19:30:00.002+08:00

what happened?
same sunday for me, went to church, TG blah blah...
nothing special happened.
:

---->TG Member of the Day<----
shyn a.k.a (fr19) she made my day by posting early in my thread.
keeping it alive and she's the only one i chatted with today.. except for sis and chin but they're already late. ;D kisses to farshyn!

Saturday, May 3,'08

2008-05-04T12:45:00.002+08:00

what happened?
this entry is a lil' late i know. i was too busy yesterday to post it. :
uhm. i woke up early "again" (i'm getting used to it) and got OL to check my comments in friendster, new messages in my tagboard, posted in TG to get updated.. blah blah. as my usual weekend on saturdays i go to the chapel to have my choir practice. so i got offline by 1pm cause i'm supposed to be there at 1:30 (for me it's better that i'm the one who waits,than the one being waited for) even the practice is still 2pm. :]
after the practice some my friends went to my house to play with me.
as in internet games. lOl. :D then my dad called and said that i should get ready..
cause' we will watch a movie. then he arrived,we went to the mall to watch "IRONMAN".
and got home 12:15am. :] that's why i didn't get the chance to publish my entry yesterday. ;]

--->TG Member of the day<---
aleea a.k.a (aleea07) uhm,i chose her coz' she's really a good friend of mine and she helps me keeping my threadie alive. ;]
kisses to you! and lots love! ♥

Friday, May 2,'08

2008-05-02T18:03:00.002+08:00

what happened?
hmm.. as usual. i woke up early (7 am to be exact!) and ate my breakfast happily.. I watched Unang Hirit while eating my bfast. After eating you know what i did next? guess! ;D lol. of course turn on the computer. ;]
then got OL in TG,checked my mail,and opened imeem(you know,sooundtrip xP)...
then i was talking to chamz(Charmmy Kitty) in her BC thread and she said that they were also having a conversation in multiply,so i logged in and joined their conversation. XD blah blah.. kung anu-ano pinagusapan.. flood lang ng guestbook! XD
then sach(sachie) asked permission if she could flood mine then i said of course/. :]
tapos i felt like sleeping, i was bored.. but when i checked back in TG someone posted in my thread so i replied and she replied back.. blah blah blah...
ayun lang. xD haha! =))

News Flash!!!

Thread Update uhm. i have a new thread title. ;] you might go looking for it, it's "All My Innocence is Wasted on The Dead and Dreaming" ;)

Learned Something chamz(Charmmy Kitty) tought me some japan-ese. =))
like "Shoujo-tachi wa Kuro wo daisuki" if i'm not mistaken. it means "Girls Love Black" long no? haha!!

---->TG Member Of The Day<----
nix a.k.a(AngelNix) uhm i choose her cause' she's a nice new friend of mine. :) even thought that i just met her today she didn't get shy and answered everything i ask her. ;] hope we could be close friends. :) lav ya' xD

Night of May 1,'08

2008-05-01T20:11:00.004+08:00

what happened?
I went to church with my friend and after church we did some chit chats and waited for her mom and went home. I made a bracelet, because my tita said that before they come back from bohol i should present them a small project i did for the whole week. ;D i was supposed to do a cellphone bag but i can't find the metallic thing they use in crochet. xP and all I found was colorful nylon strings,so i decided to make a bracelet instead. xD after I finished the bracelet, I drew so I can add it my project. XD

Thursday, May 1 '08

2008-05-01T15:22:00.005+08:00

what happened?

i'll make this quick i will still go to church. :]
hmm.. i woke up early and got OL in TG early (can't beleive it! for the first time! a once in a lifetime experience! :D) hmm.. just feeling hot and tired. and now i'm going to church. teehee! :]

NEWS FLASH!!

Availability i'm very available tomorrow.whole day. :]

New Updates i updated the blog added some new features, and also removed some. xP

--->My TG Member of the day<---

den-den :] a.k.a (denzel_12) he made me happy and preocuppied this day. he gave me something to do. :] and he always drops by my thread. he's so so nice i say!and he was the first one to nominate me in the TG Awards 2008. xD »»»thanks dude. kisses to you!

Wednesday, April 30 '08 =)

2008-04-30T20:45:00.002+08:00

what happened?
Today is supposed to be my relax day as in not worrying 'bout things, just having fun, laughs only no smoke should go out of my ears...etc. but unfortunately i was annoyed by another LONG SMF PROBLEM! hate it! it took about 5-10 minutes i guess. it ruined my nice quiet time chatting with other TG membs. :P so there.
Good thing! jessa changed my mood. (thanks girl! ;])she made me smile. :]

NEWS FLASH!!

elly(angel_elly93) changed her link. update those linkages!
Another SMF Connection Problem Occured just this 8pm. :C
Activeness so ayun. I owe a lot of entries in this blog. sorry for the readers,if bitin yung updates. i sometimes like better posting in TG Boards so i forgot about updating na. :)
New Posting Style as i see in other TG's blogs they choose a member of the day.
so i'll put also. so i can show them my appreciation for their kindness and whatever nice they did. :]

--->My TG Member of The Day <---
rie a.k.a jess or jessa (BalletGrl5) she's really nice to me. she always makes me feel good about myself, she makes me smile when i'm at my worst, she helps me when i have a problem... etc.
for me i consider her as one of my beshie(italicized and bold) :D siguro.. we've been online friends for a long time now. (about 5-7 months ata) lol. :]

love ya' girl. :]

Previous Happenings

2008-03-31T10:30:00.005+08:00

February 23, '08

It's saturday another holy day for me. choir practice, then I gave a quiz
for those who take organ lessons.
I got home then my dad was home he asked me if i want to watch a movie with him,
and i answered his question with a question. I asked him what will we watch, and said Jumper.so I agreed. After watching the movie Jumper
my dad and I wanted to be a jumper. lol
We also concluded that it has part two. :)

February 26, '08

It's Tuesday and we have classes. :P

activities
Long Quiz [english]
Checking of Quizzes [TLE] *yawn*
New Lesson w/ laughing part [filipino]
Quiz [social studies] 3 mistakes! a thumb up for me. ( first time )
New Lesson [TLE] *yawn* *closed my eyes for awhile* sleeping!. :))
Presentation [math] (we were embarrassed by our teacher >:P )
New Lesson [biology] ( genetics )

Too much just for a day!

Actually a friend of mine had her worst day!
1st thing in the morning when she arrived she opened her bag then we said "Amoy Papa Ketchup!" :) then she saw her packed lunch with ketchup spilled all over, then her key for her locker had lost! but good thing! the janitress found it!

Important Note
Nakasabay ko yung Ex boyfriend ko papasok!
and he smiled at me. :)

February 27, '08
This is the BEST day!! I Love this day! I won't forget it!

Today is the finals of the mascot making contest for dental month.
Our section is included and my crush's section.
Before we started everyone was preparing for their special numbers.

One of his classmate was wearing a yellow shirt with candies all over him, and I'm starting to have a headache because of the temp. so i asked
him if I could have one and he said "sure! baik mo yung balat ha!! kasi nalalaglag kapag may laman eh." then my crush [wearing the mascot suite]
removed his helmet and turned around then smiled at me. gawsh!!
I turned around and blushed.

During our presentation,
we started it with a small play and after the fight scene
we danced in the tune of "Crank dat" by Soulja Boy.

we won as the champion.

and I nearly forgot, when we were on our way the University Hall, my other crush was actually just centimeters away from me. He looked down an saw me he smiled and then he said HI to me!!
*it happened 4 times

BEST DAY EVER!!

a lot of things have happened this past few days. :| [whew!]

2008-02-23T09:07:00.002+08:00

February 18,'08
this day is a happy day!
me and 3 friends of mine went to farmers to buy a gift for someone.
me and my best friend left my other 2 friends[guy & girl] in a toy shop
to buy a bracelet for the guy in SILVER WORKS in gateway.
then we went to church to have our organ practice.

February 19,'08
it is supposed to be MY & X-bf's day
today. if we are still on we're 2 years na sana. :
This is a bad day for me. coz' i haven't seen him.

February 20,'08
this day is totally awesome!
most of our teachers didn't attend. [i dunno why?!]
and this was really great.
i learned how to solve the rubix cube this day.
and i asked my dad to buy me an original rubix cube and he told me that
he will buy me one. =))

Zaitooth! pulis panglalamunan!

2008-02-05T20:57:00.000+08:00

Tuesday. February 5,'08
we finished the mascot for our dental month
named "zaitooth" haha. =)) corny!
but still kills me. it drives me nuts!
we named everything according to the
TV Show "Zaido".
=))

` it is also our advisers birtdeii. :
but the celebration we planned did not turn out
as what we expected.
we prepared a banner for her but all she did when
she saw it is ask my X-bF to remove it.
i felt disappointed and like my heart was torn into million pieces.
we just want her to be happy on her birtdeii and let
everybody know that we care for her that much! :
but i guess she isn't ready to start a new beginning with us yet.[we had a fight]
but isn't sorry enough for doing something childish?
and she goes, "i don't need materials,all i need is your sincerity"
what kind of sincerity does she wants? we're giving all our hearts here!!
can't she feel it?can't she see it? if she doesn't well all i can say bout' her

SHE'S NUMB

A Wise Act =)

2008-01-25T20:32:00.000+08:00

Wednesday.January 23,2008
we had our elimination of our playfest in english. We performed the piece "Fusane's Trial"
It's about a family problem and the story happened somewhere in
Africa. [forgot where : ]
I attended church with my classmate norielle && lara and went home 8:30

It was also Carlo's 14th birthday. yey! =))

Thursday.January 24,2008
We had our first && last practice for
our Song Interpretation in english.
We interpreted the song "Colors of the Wind"
sang in the Disney movie Pocahontas.
We started practicing during our first period which is english
and continued it during our lunch break. We also had our final part of our
practice after our classes in the 3rd floor lobby until 5:oo pm && until 6:oo pm outside the school building.
But we were not able to finish everything that day. So 7 of us [including me] went in one of my classmates house to make steps for the remaining parts.
We finished 7:oo pm and I got home almost 8. :

an Announcement came to us that we qualified for the SEMI-FINALS of the play fest. =))

Friday.January 25,2008
a stressful it was. and full of pressure on us. we were the first one to perform the song interpretation. It was a success we know that our steps are too simple but at least we did not fail.and one more thing,bcoz we got in the semi-finals
of our playfest we characters are tensed bout' the upcoming semi-finals. Some of us [include me] doesn't want to continue the fight bcoz of the truth that we are tired of practicing and performing continuously without any rest.

Play Fest

2008-01-20T20:02:00.001+08:00

gawsh! our play fest is nearly coming, and I'm one of the cast!

wish me luck..

Tension is all over my body coz' I need to memorize 34 LINES!!

when someone calls you a slut

2007-12-01T10:04:00.000+08:00

it started out like this.
this happened this past sembreak.
one of the students in my school made a highschool forum of the school
to get connected with the other year level students.
then weeks passed by and everyone in the forum became friends..
we started hanging out together..saying HI's and Hello's to each other which we didn't do before.

one of my classmates made a close friend in the forum and the name is "GORI"[codename]
so i got interested to this guy coz' he's pretty cool!.He has a girlfriend that is also a member in the forum.he asked us to call the girl mommy.. so I did..

I added the guy in my YM list.we started to chat everyday trying to know each other..
one day the guy "GORI" is telling me sweet things which suppossed he should tell to his gf.
then he started expressing his feelings and so..

one day he asked me to call in the evening but my family and I are suppossed to watch a movie that day so I told him that i'll just call him by the time i arrive home and my parents are asleep..

during are conversation that morning (it was already 1am) he told me a lot of things he shouldn't be telling me.
then I said I still need to sleep I still have meeting to attend to.

days passed by after our last conversation. His gf started looking at me badly. I just ignored it,and everytime she sees me she looks at me from head to toe making me feel awkward.

the day came his girlfriend chatted with me.
telling bad things such us flirt,slut, and etc.
it didn't bother me..

the last of our conversation that she told me that I was such a wall climber. to be not insulted I replied thanks for the compliment.

then she started posting bulletins on friendster telling me that I have lots of enemies. (courtesy of her)

and NOW i do have lots of enemies coz' of her and I think that's bad right?!
but I didn't started it actually it was her bf "GORI"
I was a the victim here but they both got mad at me.
GORI got mad at me for telling the absolute truth to her gf.
and his GF got mad at me because of her thought that I was stealing her bf.

I just don't know what else to do..
do they have the right of being mad at me/..?

*comment please if they have the right or they don't*

[potchi]

Tensionado

2007-10-11T20:51:00.000+08:00

Presentation coming soon!!

very soon!
this coming 15th of October..
We will be dancing and I'll be playing..

tension is all over me..because I'm really stressed out because we also have this cultural dance thing and I'm one of the center attraction and the time of my game may be a conflict with that activity so I don't really know where to join!
waah!! and I'm the captainball of our volleyball team.

arggh!!

Intramurals Week is really a stressful week!!
and no one can DENY it!

help me naman!!

where will I meet my future boyfriend?

2007-09-29T13:04:00.000+08:00

At your favorite band's gig
Your love for music will ultimately lead you to the guy of your dreams. His passion for music is inspiring—maybe you'll start talking when he lends you his garage band's demo CD. Whatever the conversation starter is, you'll never run out of things to talk about and gigs to attend. Who knows, the two of you might make music together too! Take more quizzes like this on Candymag.com

my CUTIE

2007-09-29T12:57:00.000+08:00

Match Made in Heaven: The Music Maven
You like the cute crooner whose voice—whether rocking out to heavy guitar riffs or whispering the last stanza of an acoustic song—can vibrate your heart strings no matter how wild or sappy they get, just like rock star Miggy Chavez who says that he admires girls who can tolerate his brattiness. Take more quizzes like this on Candymag.com

Akira Sendoh

2007-09-15T13:09:00.000+08:00

Name: Akira Sendoh
A.k.a.: The Genius, Ryonan's Ace Player
Age: 16- 17
Birthday: Probably February 14th
Highschool: Ryonan Highschool
Junior High: Kitazawagakuen Jr in Tokyo (source: anime slam dunk dot com)
Grade: 2nd
Height: 190 cm (6'3)
Weight: 79 kg (174 lbs.)
Position: point guard (PG) & small forward (SF)
Jersey no.: 7
Shoe Brand: Converse
Voice actor: Yoshitada Ohtsuka

Family and background:
We don't know much about Sendoh's family. Somehow we believe that he's only child in a nice warm family. Despite his friendly character, he seems to be a loner. He could be friends with anybody though, everyone seems to like him so much. Soon after he joined the Ryonan highschool team he became the ace player because of his incredible talent and abilities.

Special abilities:
Sendoh is one the most talented players around in Slam Dunk।
He's a good shooter, nice rebounder and also a strategist of the game।
He's able to play fancy offense but also great defense to stop
outstanding forwards such as Rukawa. Despite his height he's a very
speedy and flexible player. He ain't the Genius for nothing. Sakuragi
likes to call himself the Genius, but Sendoh is called the true
Genius by others.

In his first year of highschool he was a small forward
and literally a scoring machine (similarity with Rukawa),
but in his second year he figured the fun of passing the
ball and upgraded the whole team. His sight on the game
is outstanding and his senses are very high; thanks to
these facts he became the excellent point guard of the
team, which is quite exceptional for such a tall player. But he does his job
very well and is without a doubt the ace player of Ryonan.
Along with Fukuda and Uozumi they form the strongest offense
of Kanagawa.

Not only is he the ace player, he's also the mental support of the team, when things are going wrong, the team members keep having faith
in their star player. Sendoh is that kinda player that
can bring up the best qualities of others. He's a very reliable
player: when the team is behind, he'll show his scoring ability
again without losing the focus on the game. He knows what the best
is for his team. It's often said that Sendoh is the true captain
of Ryonan instead of Uozumi, because he has the ability to calm
down the team, and also fire up and unify the team.
When Uozumi retires from the game Sendoh becomes the new captain.

Although Ryonan lost their game vs Shohoku and also their opportunity to play in the IH competition, Sendoh was chosen one of the five best players
of Kanagawa (of course). The other four were Maki, Akagi, Jin
and Rukawa (of course).

Special features:
His spiky hair and ever disarming smile.

Personality:
Sendoh is in contrary to most of the Slam Dunk characters
a very nice and warm person। He always smiles and is
friendly and modest, although he surely knows that
he is a more than marvelous player। He never loses his temper
and shows respect to strong players, but definitely won't give
away any game! He's a fighter for victory no matter what.
The only problem he might have is his lack of focus when he
meets an opponent that's not very strong. His concentration
is optimal when he's playing rivals such as Rukawa and Maki; such
guys bring up the best in him. Although they are rivals, I believe
that Rukawa and Maki truly have respect for this genius. And Sendoh is that kinda person you can't resist, you just have to respect this guy.

But it happens that Sendoh is not really caring about
being in time... He was late at the practice game vs
Shohoku, but his honesty ("Sorry coach, I overslept.") was
so disarming that Ryonan's coach simply couldn't get angry at him...
He was also late on the training right after the district games.

Sendoh's biggest hobby, besides of basketball of course, is
fishing. He is always alone. I think the fishing part is
to relax from the tension, I mean the whole team is laying
in his hands: he's the player the team leans on.
Everyone needs a time to relax, Rukawa sleeps and Sendoh fishes. (I will never
understand geniuses...)

AnimeAnalyze's opinion:

Rukie: Well, Sendoh is Vincent's favorite character, so I'll let him do his talk first.

Vincent: Sendoh is a true allround player, scoring and passing are definitely his most powerful skills. With these abilities Sendoh should be in the Championship. Too bad for him, he chose the wrong highschool to attend... Why? Why oh why did you go to Ryonan? Shohoku was bad at that time, so I don't blame him for not choosing Shohoku. But why not Kainan?! Maybe Ryonan is located closer to his favorite fishing spot or something...

Rukie: I think Sendoh is the 3rd on my favorites list. The guy is सो
chilling, you can't dislike him! I think I am like many Slam Dunk fans wondering how it would be if Sendoh and Rukawa were in the same team। Wouldn't that be just perfect?? Although they show their best play against(!) each other, I would love to see them playing as team mates and kick some asses! I think Sendoh should leave Ryonan and join Shohoku!! Hehe, that would be so cool!!

Vincent: I think Ryonan, no I'm certain Ryonan is BLESSED with Sendoh. Ryonan = Sendoh , they simply can't make it without Sendoh. All they got left is a big center without brains, a point guard who loses the ball, a guard with a big mouth and a power forward who can't guard... Me too like to see Sendoh going to another highschool in Kanagawa, Shohoku would be perfect, but Kainan isn't bad either. In other words, everything is better than Ryonan.

Rukie: If only Sendoh had a better team... They had the opportunity to beat Kainan, if it wasn't for Uozumi acting so stupid. Arguing with the referee and receive his 5th foul, that's about the most stupid thing you can do as a player and Team Captain! They also had some chances agains Shohoku, but when Uozumi received his 4th foul, Ryonan's coach put him on the bench for a few minutes. During these Sendoh had to play offense and defense basically on his own, and moreover: he had to defend super Rookie Rukawa. The pressure was very high en he almost broke down. The nice thing about this scene was the fact that we could finally see that Sendoh is also just a human being after all.

Vincent: Sendoh is called the Genius in the series, by experts (journalists) and other star players like Maki and Fujima. I wish Sendoh could have entered the Championship so he could show the whole country what he is capable of. Sendoh derserves a better fate than is!

Believe it or not I think he could even be a basketball coach right now :P

AnimeAnalyze's memorable scenes:

Rukie: I like his rivalry with Rukawa. I believe he could be friends with Rukawa. I like the flash backs of Rukawa during Sannoh vs Shohoku: he challenged Sendoh for a one-on-one game, which ended in a tie. Sendoh told Rukawa some wise words that changed Rukawa's playing style and that made him an even better player. Sendoh played an important role in that match, although he wasn't even there.

Vincent: When he asks his team mates to pass him every ball in the second half of Ryonan vs Shohoku. He turned back to the scoring machine again and had some really marvelous plays, everytime getting the score and a three throw. He single-handedly lifted his team and almost brought victory.

Rukie: Right before the tip off of Kainan vs Ryonan, Uozumi said to Maki "You will give the "ever winning name" away today." Maki said that Uozumi couldn't make them to with his powers. Uozumi replied: "Not by my powers, but by our Sendoh's." And all that Sendoh did was smiling and thinking this was giving him some pressure. This scene showed two things. Firstly, the trust of Sendoh's team mates in his powers and secondly, Sendoh's modesty. When Ryonan lost this game Maki shaked Sendoh's hand in deep respect.

When Ryonan lost their game to Shohoku and couldn't qualify for the IH games, Maki looked at Sendoh from the grandstand and thought: "I really hoped I would see him on the national platform." It was just sad that such a marvelous player as Sendoh couldn't reach the IH games, but then on the other hand, we don't want Shohoku to lose, do we?

Vincent: His last score against Shohoku, when he jumped up with Sakuragi right behind him, Sakuragi thought he could block him, but Sendoh uses an effect lay up, the ball spins via the board in the net, while the net got strangled by the ball's spin.

All his one on one scenes vs Maki and Rukawa, those were just cool :D

AnimeAnalyze's favorite line:

Rukie: "There are different ways to play offense, and one-on-one is just one way. You haven't shown those abilities. As long as you haven't, I don't believe I'll lose to you." (to Rukawa)

"You haven't changed at all." (to Sakuragi)

"If you want to beat me, you'll have to train really hard."

(smiles) "Thanks a lot." (to Sakuragi who tipped the ball into his own basket)

Vincent: I got past you two. (to Rukawa and Sakuragi)

Secrets In Our Lives... <3

2007-08-28T16:01:00.000+08:00

SECRETS IN OUR LIVES

From The Unbearable Existence, a collection of prose and journal

By Danny C. Sillada

“I know what you did last summer…”

- From the movie of the same title

“What if I tell you my secret, would you still love me?” asked the Mandaya warrior, Magumo, a day before his betrothal to princess Kaome of Kala-an tribe.

“It all depends…!” responded Kaome in a very sad voice looking through the unfathomable eyes of her warrior.

All of a sudden, the daylight burst into darkness when the tambakunawa (giant scorpion) swallowed up the sun and left the villagers scampering in obscurity.

“The curse of the busaw is cast upon us!” shouted the gray-haired balyan (priestess) followed by the discordant sound of drumbeat and mang-mang (bamboo instrument) conjuring up the busaw (evil spirit) to bring back the sun from the mouth of tambakunawa.

Then, out of the jarring noise from the village, the giant scorpion disgorged out the sun from its colossal mouth, which eventually brought back the light into the sky. But there, in the middle of the Kala-an village, stood a hideous monster by the side of Kaome.

The natives were petrified with horror how the monster suddenly appeared in their midst. In an instant, the Mandaya warriors seized the monster by his neck, chopped off his head and stuck it on the bamboo pole.

Kaome helplessly wept in silence, she couldn’t bear to see the bleeding head of the monster; her heart was torn into pieces with immeasurable regret for not loving him that much…

Magumo’s secret had turned him into a monster when Kaome’s love was not strong enough to accept who he really was amid his concealed life.

*************

How do we handle our own secret and the secret of others? Is there such a thing as the ethical codes of secret to base our judgment on the secret of our lives and others'?

Everyone, even a child, has a secret!

In fact, we hold unto our own secret like a fragile egg at the palm of our hands. It is hidden in the dark alcove of our past and present lives, persistently haunting in the deep recesses of our soul. And there, in the darkest part of our memory, it keeps coming back like a ferocious monster in the night. A secret, that is, murky or sublime, is part of who we are and who we are not amid our revealed and hidden existence.

But why we continue carrying the burden of our secret instead of liberating ourselves by telling it to a dear friend or a loved one? Are we afraid that they might judge, turn against or stop loving us?

In essence, there are secrets that are better kept than told; secrets that would do more harm than liberate others and ourselves. But there are also sublime secrets that could deliver us from the burden of our existence when revealed. And these are secrets that define us who we are and how we can live in the midst of the secrets of others.

No matter what and how monstrous our secret is – we have to accept and embrace it as an indispensable element of our private lives because we are also part of what we hide from others.

What if I tell you my secret, would you still love me?

credits to:

writer:© Danny C. Sillada

Illustrator: “The Secret”, pen & ink on paper by Danny C. Sillada

I reposted this and copied it from Sir Danny Sillada (my online friend in multiply and a great writer to me and everyone else). When he writes I actually feel his heart. Every literary work of his touches my heart and my reason of posting this is because I just wanted to share this to bigger number of people coz' posting in multiply to share this for me isn't enough.For me I think more people should know and read this article. <3

Blogthings Things. 4 my blog.. "dUh?!".. <3

2007-08-28T14:29:00.000+08:00

You Should Get a Rose Tattoo

Sexy and classic
You are pure rock and roll. You party hard. So does your tattoo.

What Tattoo Should You Get?

Your Ideal Pet is a Cat

You're both aloof, introverted, and moody.
And your friends secretly wish that you were declawed!

What's Your Ideal Pet?

You Are An Orange Girl

You live in the fast lane. You love action, risk, and competition.
You're spontaneous, enthusiastic, and persuasive.
But you're also easily bored - and love to rebel against structures.
You resent rules ... as well as people's attempts to control you!

What Color Girl Are You?

You Are Indigo

Of all the shades of blue, you are the most funky, unique, and independent.
Expressing yourself and taking a leap of faith has always been easy for you.

What Color Blue Are You?

You Are Boyish Sexy

You're the kind of girl who gets along with all the boys
Whether it's holding your own in a game of touch football...
Or kicking some major butt while playing Xbox.
You hang with the guys easily, while still keeping your girly sexiness.

What Kind of Sexy Girl Are You?

Your Inner Muse is Euterpe

You are most like this muse of music.
While you may or may not be musical...
You love music and set life to your own personal soundtrack.
And you are good at making anyone's heart sing!

What Muse Are You?

You Are a Ring Finger

You are romantic, expressive, and hopeful. You see the best in everything.
You are very artistic, and you see the world as your canvas. You are also drawn to the written word.
Inventive and unique, you are often away in your own inner world.

You get along well with: The Pinky

Stay away from: The Index Finger

What Finger Are You?

Boring Tuesday.... <3

2007-08-28T11:23:00.000+08:00

We don't have classes for today,because NCAE will be held in our school and our school admin. doesn't want any students to interrupt those 4th year students who are taking the examination.
So now here I am in front of my computer and blogging this entry.
Well,don't have to do today.Maybe I'll just play neopets or post in forums..

and just want to remind you. Please add me as your friend in Neopets once again I'm potpotch there..and my pet's names are : warfreax and toinkingz :)

Pet pet pets to the rescue.. <3

2007-08-27T15:25:00.000+08:00

Neopets Rocks!

Neopets is an awesome virtual pet site. You can create your own cute pets (up to a maximum of four), feed them, groom them, look after them and watch them grow. You can also chat to other people, play games, create your own web pages, send NeoMail and lots more.I'm potpotch there..hope to meet you.C'yah!

Play NOW!

They Visited ME! <3 aw.so sweet

2007-08-27T13:08:00.000+08:00

I had sick today..(Don't ask cause' It's a girl thing)
But my fellow church officers. They prayed for me and after that I came
with them to visit also some of our fellow officers. :)
It was fun we ate custard cake from the bakery store at the corner,and we drank RC cola.
haha.. We all had lots of laughs and we really like visiting house-to-house..
Well,more to come for this day.
Just want to share a specific activity for today..
Well,I need to take a shower already..I *snifs* Stink already.. buwahaha
later!

Flip-flops are on the way <3

2007-08-25T20:48:00.000+08:00

Paint those toenails Fashionista's because we need to get ready for the next flip flop season to stay, and we have a totally cool project that will have your feet looking hotter than ever!

What you need:
A plain pair of rubber thongs
1/2 a metre of colourful ribbon in two different designs
Scissors
1 pack of silver or colourful jewels
Craft glue

Instructions

Step 1
Measure and cut one of your ribbons into two equal lengths of about 20cm

Step 2
Tie the ribbon around the toe of the thong a few times, and finish with a bow. Do the same on the other thong.

Step 3
Take your other ribbon and cut into another two equal lengths of about 20cm. Tie both of these strands in bows.

Step 4
Attach the bows on top of the other bows with craft glue and hold for a few minutes.

Step 5
Position your jewels on the top of your thongs and when you are happy with how they look, glue them on with craft glue.

Step 6
Let the glue dry overnight, and you will be ready to start your stuff in your new personally designed thongs!

Important Tips:

Choose bright colors for your ribbons to match the summer season.
If you cannot find stick on jewels, choose a strong craft glue so that your jewels don't fall off.
Let your imagination run wild when designing your thongs, and try materials including lace, buttons and sequins.

Brat Bratz.. new dollies release <3 so cute

2007-08-25T20:44:00.000+08:00

Bratz Kidz SleepOver

Snuggle up with the Bratz Kidz(tm) for the most exciting Sleep-Over fun!

But don't expect to get much sleep. They're too busy dancing, chatting, doing makeovers and swapping scary stories!

Pampered Pupz

What's a Bratz (tm) girl's number one accessory? A pampered puppy by her side in its own, coordinating fashion outfit.

It's this season's MUST-HAVE! It's only the best for a Bratz(tm) and her pet so go over the top with rhinestones, satin and FAUX fur. Tee Hee! So Cute!

Check it out the handle becomes a collar for your pet!

Bratz Big Babyz with Hair

Before they were Bratz^TM, they were Bratz Babyz!^TM But just because they're babies doesn't mean they have a small sense of style! These are the hippest, funkiest, craziest babies around, now with real hair for you to style in the most fashionable 'do!

Get involve!

2007-08-25T20:41:00.001+08:00

Hey have you checked out Stardoll?

Stardoll is an online celebrity dress up and community site for everyone who loves fashion and celebrities. So... ALL OF US!!

It's a site for girls like us and has more than 400 dolls and tens of thousands of garments and accessories with new dolls created every week.

Anyway enough from me the only way to really understand is to get involved!

Get Playing!

www.stardoll.com

Song Interpretation

2007-08-25T20:15:00.000+08:00

waah..grabe! wow! ka-tense..yesterday we had our song interpretation(contest) and it's our filipino project at the same time..

Fear overcame everyone of us,so medyo "nagkalat" kami.. :P

Before our presentation we had our bets already on who'll win in the contest for sure.Number one in our list is 2-Hosea..But they said that they're not the one who made the steps it was their adviser Sir. Agcaoilli (MAPEH teacher) and to other section it was just so unfair also to us.But they're really good.Second is 2-Isiah(carlynn's section) they're also good! compared to them we're simply nothing what else if we were compared to Hosea.. :(

huhu,.but we got to admit it.I was so mad&sad at the same time,coz' teaching and leading your section in front is not that easy as what it looks like.
But our student teacher in filipino made me realize that we're unique in a way that we didn't use any player for music to play instead we made use of our voices and guitars..and he also made us proud of our performance.he told us that if we weren't scared we may have won even 3rd place.He removed the feeling of being mad in my heart,he made me feel relaxed and happy..While listening to what he's saying tears came to me eyes..(of course I wipe 'em away i don't want anyone to see me crying)

Being a participant in the contest is another experience for me in being a choreographer of a section..
Another memory was added not only in my mind but also in my heart..

<3

Funky Bangles <3

2007-08-25T20:13:00.000+08:00

Now you can have the perfect accessory for all your outfits with your own custom made bangle! These funky bangles will have you looking cute in no time.

What you need:

Wooden bangles (available at Williams shoes and some spotlight stores)
Acrylic paints
Paintbrush
Wood varnish

Instructions:

Step 1
Choose the colours and pattern you will be using

Step 2
It's as easy as just painting your chosen design onto the bangle! With a thick paintbrush, paint on the background colour. With a thin paintbrush, paint on your design.

Step 3
When your paint has dried, coat your bangle with one layer of varnish.

TG Tips

Try and wear more than one bangle, that way they will stand out. Choose colours and patterns that match the outfit you are wearing. Before you buy your paints, make sure they will work on wood Don't be afraid to try other ways of decorating your bangles. Cut out some of your favourite pictures and stick them onto your bangle, then coat with varnish. Easy! If you can't find wooden bangles, buy some cheap ones from a discount shop and paint over them.

The truth behind the world of GLITTERS.. <3

2007-08-25T19:48:00.000+08:00

Glitter Facts!!

"glitter" = the quality pf sparkling brightly

Glitter is usually made of metallic flakes

Gary Glitter was a popular rockstar in the 1970's!

'Glitter Rock' was a type of rock music popular in the 1970's... rockstars wore lots of glitter make-up, shiny outfits and huge sparkly platform boots!

Christmas decorations are usually covered in glitter to resemble snow sparkling!

Mariah Carey starred in a movie called 'Glitter'. It's famous for being very, very bad.

Snowdomes commonly have glitter in them to resemble snow when shaken.

Glitter is used in many types of arts and crafts to add brilliance, sparkle and shine.

Underground caves that appear to glitter get this affect from calcite crystals.

Glitter can be used in many items to enhance their appearance, such as fabrics, cosmetics, glass, plastics, paint, paper, and ornaments.

Nail varnish and lip-glosses commonly use glitter to add an extra sense of glam!

"All that glitters is not gold" is an old English proverb meaning that not everything is always as it seems!

Gold never tarnishes or rusts because it doesn't react to oxygen (which causes other metals to rust).

A single ounce of gold can be drawn into a wire five miles long, because it's so maleable.

Gold is used in everything from space suits and firefighters helmets to arthristis treatments and computer components!

To attain the highest achievement in something is often referred to as a 'glittering prize'.

Celebrities who attend lots of parties and glamourous functions are often referred to as 'the glitterati'.

Glamour DIY part 3

2007-08-25T19:34:00.000+08:00

This super-easy recipe for groovy Body Glitter will have you outshining everyone at your next party!

What you'll need:
-Glitter (duh!)
-Aloe Vera gel (you can buy this at chemists or health food stores)
-A pot to put your finished product in!

Procedure

Pour some Aloe Vera gel into the pot you want to store it in until it's about full. Add some glitter in small amounts to avoid clumping. Keep adding glitter until you have the amount of sparkle you want!

That's it! Easy, huh?

Top Tips:
-Use different coloured glitters to create a 'rainbow' effect!
-Add a small amount of food dye to make your gel coloured!
-Make up batches of Body Glitter to give to friends as presents!
-Add some nice smelling essential oil to make your Body Glitter smell yummy!

Homemade Chocolate Lip Gloss <3

2007-08-25T18:56:00.000+08:00

Pamper yourself with this idea..

Make your own groovy Chocolate Lip Gloss!

What you?ll need:
-Vaseline
-Powdered cocoa mix
-Small pot to put it in!

Procedure:

You might need Mum's help with this one, as you'll need to use the microwave, and the Vaseline will get hot.

Place the desired amount of Vaseline in a glass bowl in the microwave, and heat for 30 seconds. Take it out and give it a stir. Continue to do this until the Vaseline is fully melted.

Next, add the cocoa powder (experiment with how 'chocolatey' you want your gloss!) to the Vaseline, and stir well. Put the mixture back into the microwave for another 30 seconds. Stir again. Set aside to cool.

Once your mixture is cool enough to handle, spoon it into your 'lip gloss pot' and pop it into the fridge for a short while to set. You can use all sorts of things for a 'lip gloss pot' - your Mum might have an old eyeshadow pot that's empty. Or your Dad might have a small plastic pot for fishing tackle! You can also buy small plastic make-up pots at your local chemist. Use your imagination!

It's now ready to use!

You can play around with this - here are some fun ideas!
- Use powdered fruit juice like Tang to make yummy fruity lip gloss!
- Add some shimmery eyeshadow for pretty colour!
- Add some glitter for an amazing sparkly effect!
- Add Vanilla Essence for yummy vanilla tasting gloss!
- Make a few pots to give to friends as presents!
- Add some strawberry essence for yummo berry smell and taste! (Idea from TG reader Candice Graham!)

Have fun! Let us know how you went with your own creation!

Glamour DIY part 2

2007-08-25T18:46:00.000+08:00

Homemade beauty products needn't be hard to make, lumpy and gross! They can be heaps of fun to make, and easy, too! Just raid the kitchen cupboards and fruit bowl and off you go! Try some of these for beauty treats, or just for a bit of fun!

** Tips for all masks:
- Make sure when applying the masks to your face to avoid the eyes and mouth areas.
- Apply gently - no need to rub it in!
- Leave masks on for about 10 minutes unless otherwise stated.
- Always rinse off gently with warm water.

* Banana Mask
Mash 1 banana and mix with 1 teaspoon of honey. Smooth over face and leave on for about 10- 20 minutes.

* Honey Mask
Mix 2 tablespoons honey with 2 teaspoons milk. Apply to face.

* Strawberry and Oat Mask
2 Tblsp ground oats, 3 large ripe strawberries, 1 teaspoon cream
Mix oats, mashed strawberries and cream to make a paste. It doesn't matter if it's a bit lumpy!

* Avocado Mask
Mix 1/2 cup of chopped avocado, 1/2 cup of finely chopped cucumber, 1 egg white and 2 teaspoons of powdered milk. Mix until a smooth past is created. Leave on for anywhere from 10 - 30 minutes before rinsing.

* Milk Mask
1/2 cup of full cream milk. Dab a cotton ball in the milk and wipe it over your face. Leave it on for about 5-10 minutes before rinsing.

* Oatmeal Mask
Firstly Use 1 tablespoon of fine oatmeal. Add 2 teaspoons of full cream milk. Mix to a smooth past. Smooth the mixture over your face (you can use an ice cream stick.) Wait until the mixture is hard. Peel the Mask of and rinse your face!

Top Tips:
- Treat your Mum to a beauty treat on her birthday or Mother's Day by making and applying a mask!
- Make masks at your next slumber party! Apply them to each other and paint your toenails while waiting to rinse them off!
- Make a mask for yourself anytime you're feeling a bit blue - it will cheer you up straight away!

Glamour DIY part 1

2007-08-25T18:42:00.000+08:00

There's nothing more relaxing than a nice soak in a warm bathtub, especially when you've got lovely bath salts to help you unwind. Their soothing scents make your cares wash away, and the therapeutic actions of the salts ease tired muscles!

Here we give you a few easy-peasy recipes for some fab bath salts - perfect for yourself, or to make as a prezzie for someone special who needs a treat!

Basic But Pretty Bath Salts

You will need:
3 cups (total) of a few different types of salts (from table salt to sea salt).
Dried flowers or flower petals.
Essential oil such as rose, lavender etc

To make:
Combine the different salts. Using different types is so that they range in size from a fine texture to coarse. The different textures make this recipe look very glam! Sprinkle in some flower petals for colour. They will also float in the water making the bath look pretty! Add a few drops of essential oil, stirring to test for 'smell strength'.

Allow to dry thoroughly, then store in pretty jars ready for gift-giving!

Try these other Bath Salt recipes:

Fizzy Roses
A fizzy treat that's totally pretty too!

You will need:
1 cup baking soda
3/4 cup citric acid
3 Tblsp cornstarch
1/2 cup sea salt
A handful of lightly crushed dried rose petals

To make:
Combine all of the above ingredients, mix well and allow to dry thoroughly. It's very important to keep ingredients totally dry or the 'fizzy' bit will start without you!

Store in jars.

Relaxing Bath Salts

For sleepy heads.

You will need:
2 cup sea salt
2 cup baking soda
5 drops lavender scented oil
A handful of lavender buds

To make:
Combine all of the ingredients and mix well. This may appear to form clumps due to the liquid content, but you can just use a fork to break up the lumpy bits! You can add 4 tablespoons of liquid glycerin for extra moisturising, but it's not essential.

Allow to dry them store in jars!

Bubbly Glitter

For a totally glam bath-time!

You will need:
2 cups sea salt
1 cup table salt
2 Tblsp glitter
A few drops of essential oil
1/4 cup of baby shampoo

To make:
Combine the salts, glitter and oil and stir until the texture is smooth. Drizzle with the baby shampoo and then spread onto a greaseproof paper covered biscuit tray until you have an even layer. Allow to thoroughly dry out. This could take up to an entire day.

Store in a jar!

Top tips:
- These make great presents for friends, Mum, your Gran or anyone you know who needs a treat.
- You can change the types of petals or flowers used depending on what you or the person you are giving them to, likes best!
- Experiment with what essential oils you like best
- Package in decorative jars or 'bath tea bags' made out of muslin cloth tied with ribbon!
- Don't have a bath? You can use these as treats for your feet - just pop some into a tub of warm water and soak your tired tootsies!
- Great to make for school fetes

gloss,gloss,gloss... mwa <3

2007-08-25T11:09:00.000+08:00

Top 5 best lip gloss

Pucker up party princess!

You've got the pyjamas, the pillow and the present but there's just one more thing you need: shiny, glossy lips that will dazzle your pals and sparkle like a disco ball on the dance floor!

Of course there's no time to sit around wondering which gloss is the boss. We've tested thousands (*sigh* someone's got to do it) and sussed out five of the best...

Rituelle lipbalms
These yummy lip balms are so good you could have them for desert! With flavours like orange-choc, tangerine and honeycomb they are my number one pic for the perfect sleepover make-up session!

Smackers flip gloss
No beauty pack would ever be complete without a Smackers gloss! This flip gloss smells delish and lasts for ever!

Sugarbaby lip candy
Sugarbaby lip candy is every girls best friend. Gorgeous glitter for a pout even Mary-Kate Olsen would be jealous of!

Tali Shine gloss
The name of Tali's fruity lip gloss says it all! Peachy in Panama makes you wish you were on a tropical island. But this yummy gloss is the next best thing.

Miki fruity lip balm
Sooo cute and an absolute must have sleepover gloss. My fave flavour is orange!

NEWS UPDATE & Announcement

2007-07-25T21:35:00.000+08:00

News Update

Ina has just updated her blogger skin and planning to edit in near future...

Announcement!

Haha.. Ina have just move-on with her new schedule,and now she have saved a Computer time and Day! =)

<3
nai_08 a.k.a Ina M.

School Mode (sorry!!)

2007-06-19T17:12:00.000+08:00

I'm kinda busy studying this school year so I'm so sorry if I'll not be updated much of my blog and everything with connection to internet..I'm only allowed to have my recreational internet time on fridays...so sorry if I'll be leaving my work or duty as a Senior Moderator I'll be dropping by every friday don't worry!and thanks to those who understands me! :)

Happy Birthday

2007-06-06T15:59:00.000+08:00

I'll use the red font color 'cause' this is about a BIRTHDAY!

hahaha.. It's my Dad's and my ONLINE sister (chi/calline) 's birthday yesterday my dad is now 37 and chi is now 17 :) they're both OLD hahaha I'm such a bratt! here's something for my dad! haha :D it really fits well to him!

2007-06-04T18:53:00.000+08:00

MAY 29,

*sighs*.. It's Picture Taking Day of my beloved students...and tomorrow they'll be graduating already..I'm so sad that my cute little students will be leaving me ...this is one of the SADDEST days in my life....Leaving my studes for me is really not good or happy.kakalungkot talaga.........sobra! well I guess my TEACHER DAYS are over.

I'm really happy that my studes have finished their studies with me.kanina they were so cute wearing those TOGAs and seeing make-ups all over their faces..well,no more..hehe and kanina nagbantay pala ako kasama ang mga friends koh na guyszz.. :D

My athlete days.....

2007-05-22T16:17:00.000+08:00

efore when I hear the word volleyball the first thing that pops in my head is that There is one ball hitting your arm so bad and hard that that arm will be broken, but that’s what I only feel. Being hurt is what I thought a Volleyball game would be when I don’t have the knowledge yet about volleyball. It was the end of the S.Y 2004-’05 I was turning 6^th grade that time when my mom introduced volleyball to me. She introduced volleyball to me because she thought that my height will be a waste if I don’t use it not only that but also when she was a high school student she’s also one of the tallest girl in her class just like me and most of her friends are volleyball players so she was left behind and she graduated not even trying to be on the volleyball team. She doesn’t want me to end like that so she pushed me to “try out” for the girl’s volleyball team when I turned 6^th grade.

Having knowledge in volleyball is not that easy. Learning the terms, rules and regulations, and most of all is teamwork. I was under a college student who is also a volleyball varsity in college division. His name was Karl Lozano and he’s our coach but we used to call him Kuya KarlJ. Trying out to be on the team is not easy at it looks like. Our body’s needs to be fitted, we should have strong and powerful legs, and we should feel very light, to reach that kind of physical situation we need to do lots of work outs such as sit-ups, curl-ups, pendulum, imaginary chair, and a lot more. We are having our volleyball training every day except for Thursdays after classes. The day of choosing who’ll get to be on the team came and the coach chose the first six I thought I wouldn’t be picked because of me being a low-blooded person, but when I heard my name I smiled and I am shouting in my thoughts. From that day my journey started as an athlete.

When I graduated I had plans of continuing what I started, but again it wasn’t easy I’m in high school level this time and it would be really hard for me because I’m still adjusting to my new environment like having very strict teachers, new coach, new grading system, and a whole lot more. We had this experimental section where you’ll study both math & science in advance. I tried my best in taking the entrance examination and in my try-outs. The week after I took both test I got the news that I got in the volleyball team and at the same day I found out that I was also one of the lucky qualifiers to enter the experimental section. It wasn’t easy choosing what to get and what to lose for me both are good opportunity but I thought harder then I finally got my decision. I chose to be on the experimental section than joining the volleyball team because this experimental section would be a great start for me in high school because I would be advanced and volleyball is only an extra curriculum activity. It was really hard for me letting go of the team but I should do what’s best for me.

The whole S.Y passed and it was really a blast, but I’m still missing one piece. Nothing could replace my love for volleyball. Since the day I learned something about volleyball I’m starting to have this volley fever and until now I’m still having that fever. Letting go of volleyball was really hard for me especially my volley friends. I’m turning 2^nd year high school this year and new thing will happen. I’m begging my parents if they would let me to “try out” once more in volleyball but all my dad say is “Let us think about it we’ll tell you if the time is right”. How I wish to be on the team once more and play this game I have loved like no other sports. All I can do is to chase this sport dream.

My SATURDAY...

2007-05-05T16:31:00.002+08:00

May 5,

every saturday I have the same activity.. choir practice,computer(a little) then my one-on-one practice of voice with my "alaga" haha.. we had a deal(me and my alagas) the we will have a practice "solo" after they eat their lunches.. I'll be pointing out songs for them to sing in front of me and when they sang 3 songs perfectly they can use my keyboard(mini piano)..and we always do that every saturday.. it's fun cause we have time to focus on their own voices..there are so many choir members that's why not all of us are being trained that much..so I decided to help..since I know how to play the piano,I teach my fellow coir members(young members) to use the falceto voice...haha and my every saturday is so tiring .. at least it has a meaning :D

I'm HOME

2007-05-05T16:31:00.001+08:00

May 2

I just got home yesterday..but when I got home nobody's home (avril's song ) haha...at least I'm back...so much from a sleep over over (2 nights kasi eh ) rawr!! mwuah! gotta jet.. be back later to tell more...!

YEHEY day!!! 2

2007-05-05T16:30:00.002+08:00

May 1,
haha I'm still here inmarikina with my friend GENEC.. haha I'm here in ROCK ISLAND a computer shop in BLUE WAVE MALL near her house.. we're because one event just got finished.. (the bible quiz and general info) haha.. and it's really a good game because we won on both game.... and this a an ANOTHER YEHEY DAY because my mom and dad allowed me to stay for one more night... yahoo... more lakwatsa with my old pal!! well,tatah.. need to go!! this so much for today..

maybe be back later or tomorrow.. :)

YEHEY day!!!

2007-05-05T16:30:00.001+08:00

april 30...

I'm in a computer shop today with my old pal GENEC haha we're together this day and this time of the day because I'll be sleeping over in her house cool huh?!? well,tatah!! (bye) gotta go because,I'm almost time mwuah!!

Hayy.. BUHAY nga naman...

2007-05-05T16:29:00.001+08:00

April 24,
harhar!hate this day!cause' we don't have any classes to teach I miss my little students!..
well,it not that bad though...my cousins went here(my home)they came here because their grandpapa is sick..and they might get sick too..haha I acted like a baby sitter now lolz..but I don't get paid..rawr!my other came too and my neighbor haha..see that?!? told you I was acting like a baby sitter today!hah but it was fun,we layed ZUMA here in our computer aand played the GAMEBOY ADVANCED with kim possible,princess natasha,rugrats,block party(cartoon network),and barbie's pet shop haha I didn't acted a baby sitter anymore..I acted as a baby too haha ..well,we still don't have any classes tomorrow.. and this summer stinks!

Anu Bei' anG KapAl Mu!!!

2007-05-05T16:28:00.002+08:00

April 23,

heller!! ano ba akala mu skn??tulay na tinatapakan na pagtawid sa kabilang ibayo wala ng silbi??ang kapal mu!! h8 u!sino ka ba?so 22o lang dapat hindi kita tinutulungan eh..dapat sarili mong diskarte yan eh!sino bang nanliligaw?ako o ikaw?heller!gumising ka sa katotohanan!wag kang matulog sa pansitan!hindi mo ba ramdam na na naiinis din xa sau??lahat kaya kong ibunyag! ngayon kilala mo na ako,di ba sabi koh naman sayo WAR FREAX akoh?!? kaya kita..wag mo kong subukan!dahil ayaw mong matikman ang LUPIT koh! oo mabait akoh yun yon kapag mabait kah rin sa akin..pero kung tatalikuran mo ako pagkatapos ng lahat ng ginawa kohng kabutihan sau! pwes..magkamatayan nah!hindi kita uurungan..masaya na tau kanina..nagkakaintindihan tau,dumating lang siya naging TANGA kah nah! ano bang problema moh?!?hindi ka niya alipin okay?!?kaya wag kang magpakatanga sa kanya! tao ka rin may sariling buhay...wag mong hayaang agawin lang ng kung sino ang kalayaan mo!!!meron kang karapatan hindi ka naman timang na hindi dapat pansinin at hindi pakielaman okay?!? sana magetz mo sinasabi koh!sorry kung medyo TAMAAN kah or anything! pero sinasabi koh lang ang nararamdaman ko..AYAW KO KASING MAMATAY NG HINDI SINASABI ANG MGA HINANANKIT KOH!..

yan lang naman ang masasabi koh sa iyo pare! TORPE kah!kala ko pa naman prends tau..bigla na lang nawala dumating lang xa kanina! LECHE KAH! mamatay kah nah! wala kang kwentang kaibigan!pagkatapos kang tulungan at itawid sa kabilang mundo,iiwanan mo na ako na parang basahan na wala ng silbi!!

BUHAY TEACHER PART 2

2007-05-05T16:28:00.001+08:00

Kahapon ang huling pagkikita namin ng aking mga estudyante sa liggong ito..medyo nalungkot ako,dahil ang kahapon ay ang isang sa mga pinaka masaya kong araw..nung April 19,2007 17 pa lamang ang aking mga estudyante at kahapon ay bigla itong nadagdagan ng 6.nakilala ko ang iba sa kanila..3 babae ang kanilang mga pangalan ay Kaila,Giselle at Aubrey..napaka gaganda nila at mukhang mga manika...haha cute na cute akoh sa kanila..grabeh ang sarap nilang kausap at ang sarap makipaglaro sa kanila..nung oras na ng uwian ako ay medyo nalungkot dahil hindi koh na sila makikitang uli..nalipat sila sa klase ng panghapon...ang tanging masasabi ko lang sa kanila ay sana lumaki silang masunuring mga bata..at sana hindi nila ako makalimutan

BUHAY TEACHER PART 1

2007-05-05T16:27:00.000+08:00

haha wala akong mapagkaabalahan ngayong summer..then ate analyn invited me to help in teaching and guiding little kids in our church program SKP(Summer Kindergarten Program).
It was my second day today.. and this day was really tiring..but all of our hardworks have good effect.Teaching is really hard.. especially teaching kids with the age of 4-6..kasi kids between those ages are so makulit.. they are trying to learn things pa lang and all the things in their mind are playing.. haha.. nawawala din ang pagod naming mga nagtuturo ..kasi ang cute ng mga bata.. and ang saya kung makikita mo nah natututo naman sila.. tomorrow is another day for me to teach "again" haha.. well wish me luck!

Being a moderator...

2007-05-05T16:26:00.000+08:00

I am a moderator of a message board.. the Total Girl Board...I thought being a moderator was easy and really fun..but now that I am one.. now I know what are the feelings a moderator has.. full of board problems,member's problems,full of warnings to members.. lots and lots of cleaning.. it was really hard! being a moderator is too much work than I thought.. but still I don't regret it that I am a moderator and take note not just a moderator but a SENIOR MODERATOR!!! behind those message of warnings,message of locking the topic,message of saying to stop doing that etc. are caring and really hard working moderators.. we're not trying to kill the joy and the fun.. we are just trying to make things clear,clean and kid-friendly..moderators just care about board members..please try to uderstand us.. we are trying to do our jobs.. and doing our jobs is soo hard! sometimes it seems like we are getting mad at you.. actually we're not.. we are just so tired of getting same feedbacks from you guys! we always warn pasaway members but still you give us same feedbacks.. and because of that we can't control of our feelings and get annoyed and tired of telling again and again what's not to do ...we are so sorry if those messages hurted your feelings.. we don't mean it that way.. we are just so tired of facing a problem again and again... just remember that "WE ARE DOING ALL OF THIS BECAUSE WE CARE AND LOVE YOU" haha and here is a saying of my fellow craazzy SENIOR MODERATOR .. boom!! "WE SCARE BECAUSE WE CARE".hope you understand our situation!

Found my TRUE FRIENDS

2007-05-05T16:25:00.001+08:00

I found someone to replace my OLD PLASTIC friends! cool! and I just found them in the net.. haha! they are my TG sisters and Teentalk family..! they are so sweet..funny,cute (haha ),pasaway,addicts haha and everything you'll wish for for a friend!.. they are so cool! we really enjoy our bonding in the internet I wish we could have some real bonding moments.. but we are planning to have a mini bnding in GATEWAY CUBAO.. and it is such a good place because it is just walking distance from our home.. I just love talking and having fun with them!! I will never forget them ! I swear!...

My SUMMER Vacation this 2007

2007-05-05T16:21:00.000+08:00

haha!! I had my summer vacation yesterday.. it was a BLAST!! we had it on Antipolo City.. in the Loreland Farm Resort.. we (Actually I) swam the whole day I just stopped when we ate our lunches.. my color now is brown I'm as brown as a bark of a tree.. wahaha!! I really had fun!haha! I hate my swimsuit! T_T arrggh!! but I really had fun! it was really a tiring day.. when we got back home I went straight to bed to have my sleep! I didn't eat my dinner but my sleep was really relaxing..(maybe it's because I was really tired because of swimming the whole day!)

What should I do!!!????

2007-05-05T16:20:00.003+08:00

hayz...
I'm so bored these days! can't think of anything to do!
my sport training will start this coming week!! waah!!
this summer is really a Failure!
I don't enjoy summer this year that much!!
no swimming much..no out of towns..
I'm stuck in my computer! because of my JOB!
and this summer is realy hot!! I hate too much heat!!
it burns my skin.. I want to be soaked in the ocean..
but we won't be going to a beach.. we're still planning our outing!!
arrgggh!!
but it's good to leave in cubao!
the malls are just walking distance! yey' I always go to gateway just to refresh myself!!

any suggestion of what else can I do this summer??

For me friends are....

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Friends are the persons that gives us hapiness..actually for me I think they are the reason why should I still live in this world..
I'm a loyal,problem solver,always there to comfort,entertainer...Friend..And one of my bestfriends are my parents..they know lots of things bout' me..

and when I treat someone as my best pal they are the ones who really knows a lot about me... I don't keep secrets from them.. I'm really open to talk in any subject matter when it comes to my best pals..
hahah!!

Why do we need friends:
* So we will have a shoulder to cry on
* So we can have a person to share our problems, secrets, taught, and many more
* So we will have someone to cheer when they're down
* So I Can be complete.

Friends stay by your side and are loyal and truthful, she will keep the friendship alive. Friends don't also betray each other.

we need friends for inspiration, they are the people who will lend a helping hand...they listen to you when somethings made you sad.

My MOM had only one eye

2007-05-05T16:19:00.001+08:00

i hated her... she was such an embarrassment..

my mom ran a small shop at a flea market.

she collected little weeds and such to sell...

anything for the money we needed

she was such an embarressment.

there was this one day during elementary school..

it was field day, and my mom came.

i was so embarressed. how could she do this to me? i threw her a

hateful

look and ran out.

the next day at school...

"your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they taunted me.

i wished that my mom would just dissappear from this world so i said to

my

mom, "mom.. why dont you have the other eye?! if you're only gonna make

me

a laughingstock, why dont you just die?!!!" my mom did not respond.. i

guess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think

that i had said what i'd wanted to say all this time.. maybe it was

because my mom hadnt punished me, but i didnt think that i had hurt her

feelings very badly.

that night...

i woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water.

my mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she

might

wake me. i took a look at her, then turned away. because of the thing i

had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the

corner

of my heart. even so, i hated my mother who was crying out of her one

eye.

so i told myself that i would grow up and become successful. cause i

hated

&! nbsp;my one-eyed mom and our desperate poverty..

then i studied real hard.

i left my mother and came to Seoul and studied, and got accepted in the

Seoul University with all the confidence i had.

then, i got married.

i bought a house of my own.

then i had kids, too..

now i'm living happily as a successful man.

i like it here because it's a place that doesnt remind me of my mom.

this happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when..

what?!

who's this?!

...it was my mother...

..still with her one eye.

it felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me.

my little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye.

and i asked her,

"who are you?!"

"i dont know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. i screamed at

her,"

how dare you come to my house and scare my daughter!"

"GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"

and to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, i'm so sorry. i may have

gotten the wrong address," and she dissappeared out of sight.

thank good ness... she doesnt recognize me..

i was quite relieved.

i told myself that i wasnt going to care, or think about this for the

rest

of my life. then a wave of relief came upon me...

one day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. so,

lying

to my wife that i was going on a business trip, i went. after the

reunion,

i went down to the old shack, that i used to call a house...just out of

curiosity

there, i found my mother fallen on the cold ground.

but i did not shed a single tear.

she had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me.

my son...

i think my life has been long enough now..

and... i wont visit Seoul anymore...

but would it be too much to ask if i wanted you to come visit me once

in a

while? i miss you so much.. and i was so glad when i heard you were

coming

for the reunion. but i decided not to go to the school. ...for you...

and

i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was an embarressment for you.

you see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost

your eye. as a mom, i couldnt stand watching you having to grow up with

only one eye... so i gave you mine... i was so proud of my son that was

seeing a whole new world for me, in my place, with that eye. i was

never

upset at you for anything you did.. the couple times that you were

angry

with me,.. i thought to myself, 'it's because he loves me..'

my son... oh, my son...

i dont want you to cry for me, because of my death.

please dont cry...

my son, i love you so much

Children are....

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Amazing.............acknowledge them
Believable..........trust them
Childlike............allow them
Divine.................honor them
Energetic..........nourish them
Fallible...............embrace them
Gifts..................treasure them
Here now..........be with them
Innocent...........delight with them
Joyful................appreciate them
Kindhearted.....learn from them
Loveable............cherish them
Magical..............fly with them
Noble.................esteem them
Open minded....respect them
Precious............value them
Questioners.......encourage them
Resourceful.......support them
Spontaneous.....enjoy them
Talented............believe in them
Unique...............affirm them
Vulnerable.........protect them
Whole................recognize them
Xtraspecial.........celebrate with them
Yearning.............notice them
Zany...................laugh with them

HOW TO START A GREAT DAY

2007-05-05T16:17:00.002+08:00

If you want to make your day bright and
meaningful, recite the following positive statements:

I will greet this day with love in my heart.

I will persist until I succeed.

I am nature’s greatest miracle.

I will live this day as if it is my last.

Today, I will be master of my emotions.

I will laugh at the world.

Today, I will multiply my value a hundredfold.

Coz' LIFE is too SHORT

2007-05-05T16:17:00.001+08:00

Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful

footsteps to our family. Our original intent of having Mother enjoy some

quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as

destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, every thing became too

late.

Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking

Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years

with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother

endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him,

see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a

great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby

to where he is today.

I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a

balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant some

greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up

and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he

said: "Lets go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to

test on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any

moment put the tiny me into his pockets. Whenever we have an argument

and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his

head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted

to this kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For

example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she

could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young

people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat

the flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our

mood will also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and

hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get

use to it."

Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever I

came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her

and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I

come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item

how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even

more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You

little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would

solve it." There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.

Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast.

In your view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the

breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds

before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use

her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I

am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from a long

day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional

few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to

all the protest mother makes.

From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon

her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all

kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on,

and that resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; she

would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so

as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash they again. One day,

late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she

slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room. Hubby was

placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that

entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but

he totally ignored me. I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared

at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't

possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?"

After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to

me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the

house.

During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to

please. In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast,

mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without

any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby

happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for

having failed to perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing

breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to

work.

That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is

it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you

chose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in

tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby

sighed:

"LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I am left with no

choice but to return to the breakfast table.

The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a

sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up

my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't. I threw

down the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything out.

Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very

loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway

staring at me with fire burning in his eyes. I opened my mouth but no

words came out of it, I really didn't mean it.

We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then

stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final

stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs.

For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was

so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting

up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I keep having

the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled

with all the events happening at home, I was at the low point in my

life. Finally, a colleague said: "LD, you look terrible, you should go

and see a doctor." The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant. Now it became clear

to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated

through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had

been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the

reason that day?

At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only

been three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave,

but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called

out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended

that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut

right through my heart.

I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that

moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby:

"Darling, I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me round in circles

of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears

started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one

fight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the

disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.

That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the

lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing

the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank

deposit book and some money and left the house. Maybe he really intends

to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and

money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming

down again.

The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have

a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a

weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now

in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and

by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look

at me, his face was expressionless.

I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the

tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral,

hubby did say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted

stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident

from other people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in

dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old

house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk

faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit

her...

I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up

that morning, if we had not quarreled, if...

In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother.

Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong

liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self pity

and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we

are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in

his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I

had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding

though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby

came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues, we were

living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the

dead knot in his heart.

One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass

window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very

lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that

moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby

and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him,

and there is no need to say anything.

The girl looked at me, looks at hubby, stands up and wanted to go, hubby

stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me,

challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one

as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed down, if I had stood

that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me.

That night, he did not come home, he had chosen to use that as a way to

indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other.

He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home

from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had

returned to take some of his stuff.

I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything

to him vanished.

I lived alone; I go for my medical checkups alone, my heart breaks again

and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the

physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider

aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not. I insisted on having to

this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.

One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The

whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there

was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even

looking at it.

In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find

peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "You wait

a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just

like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot

cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come

out from there.

After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy.

I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pull e paper towards me.

Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed

the paper to him.

"LD, you are pregnant?"

Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could

not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said:

"Yes,

but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat,

facing each other.

Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart,

everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could

never reach them. I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me,

I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In

the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I

will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scares in each other's

heart. For me, its unintentional; for him, totally intentional.

I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized

now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not repeated. Other

than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart,

I am totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me,

I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him. From the

moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished

from my heart.

Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks

in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in

mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of

groaning, I kept quiet. This used to be his trick; last time, whenever I

ignore him, he would fake illness and I will surrender and find out what is wrong with

him, he would then grab me and laugh. He has forgotten that last time; I

cared for him and am concerned because there is love, but now, what is

there between us?

Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing all the way till baby was

born. Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant

products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and

bags of it stacked inside his room till it is full. I know he is trying

to use this to reach out to me, but I am no longer moved by his actions. He has no

choice but to lock himself in his room and I can hear his typing away on

his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing, but none of

that matters to me anymore.

It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one

late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came

rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had

been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs,

stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat

off my brown, throughout the journey to the hospital. Once we reached

the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying

on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In

my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did?

He held the delivery suite door opened and watch me go in, his warm eyes

caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain.

Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son, and me, his

eyes tear with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his

hand.

Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor.

I cried out for him in pain... He smiled, but without opening that tired

eyes of his... I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but

the truth is, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at

that moment.

Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, it

was already in terminal stage and it was a miracle that he managed to

last this long. I asked the doctor when did he first discover he had cancer?

Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his

funeral."

I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his

room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hits me.

Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago, his groaning was real, and I

had thought that... the computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote

for our son: "Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a

look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your

life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I

can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But

daddy now no long has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the

possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your

lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's

suggestion... Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if

I have accompanied you through your life journey. To be honest, daddy is

very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who

loves you most and also the one who loves me most..."

From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work

and even in dealing with questions of love, everything big and small was

written there.

Hubby has also written a letter for me:

"My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain

I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I

want to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby... My

dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would

smile, thank you for loving me... These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them

to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him

every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the

packaging..."

Going back to the hospital, hubby is still in coma. I brought our son

over and place him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want

our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..."

He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son still in

his arms was happily waving his tiny hands in the air. I press the

button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang thought the air as tears

slowly rolled down my face...

the WINDOW

2007-05-05T16:16:00.001+08:00

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room. One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour a day to drain the fluids from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window. The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.

The men talked for hours on end. They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation. And every afternoon when the man in the bed next to the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window.

The man in the other bed would live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the outside world. The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake, the man had said. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats. Lovers walked arm in arm amid flowers of every color of the rainbow. Grand old trees graced the landscape, and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade passing by. Although the other man could not hear the band, he could see it in his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words. Unexpectedly, an alien thought entered his head: Why should hehave all the pleasure of seeing everything while I never get to see anything? It didn't seem fair. As the thought fermented, the man felt ashamed at first. But as the days passed and he missed seeing more sights, his envy eroded into resentment and soon turned him sour. He began to brood and found himself unable to sleep. He should be by that window - and that thought now controlled his life.

Late one night, as he lay staring at the ceiling, the man by the window began to cough. He was choking on the fluid in his lungs. The other man watched in the dimly lit room as the struggling man by the window groped for the button to call for help. Listening from across the room, he never moved, never pushed his own button which would have brought the nurse running. In less than five minutes, the coughing and choking stopped, along with the sound of breathing. Now, there was only silence--deathly silence.

The following morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths. When she found the lifeless body of the man by the window, she was saddened and called the hospital attendant to take it away--no words, no fuss. As soon as it seemed appropriate, the man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look. Finally, he would have the joy of seeing it all himself. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed. It faced a blank wall.

Don't we all?

2007-05-05T16:15:00.000+08:00

Don't we all

I was parked in front of the mall wiping off my car. I had just come
from the car wash and was waiting for my wife to get out of work.
Coming my way from across the parking lot was what society would
consider a bum.
From the looks of him, he had no car, no home, no clean clothes, and no
money. There are times when you feel generous but there are other times
that you just don't want to be bothered. This was one of those "don't
want to be bothered times."
"I hope he doesn't ask me for any money," I thought.
He didn't.
He came and sat on the curb in front of the bus stop but he didn't look
like he could have enough money to even ride the bus.
After a few minutes he spoke.
"That's a very pretty car," he said.
He was ragged but he had an air of dignity around him. His scraggly
blond beard keep more than his face warm.
I said, "thanks," and continued wiping off my car.

He sat there quietly as I worked. The expected plea for money never
came.
As the silence between us widened something inside said, "ask him if
he needs any help." I was sure that he would say "yes" but I held true
to the inner voice.
"Do you need any help?" I asked.
He answered in three simple but profound words that I shall never forget.
We often look for wisdom in great men and women. We expect it from
those of higher learning and accomplishments.

I expected nothing but an
outstretched grimy hand. He spoke the three words that shook me.
"Don't we all?" he said.

I was feeling high and mighty, successful and important, above a bum
in the street, until those three words hit me like a twelve gauge
shotgun.
Don't we all?
I needed help. Maybe not for bus fare or a place to sleep, but I
needed help. I reached in my wallet and gave him not only enough for bus
fare, but enough to get a warm meal and shelter for the day. Those
three little words still ring true. No matter how much you have, no matter
how much you have accomplished, you need help too. No matter how little you
have, no matter how loaded you are with problems, even without money or
a place to sleep, you can give help.

Even if it's just a compliment, you can give that.
You never know when you may see someone that appears to have it all.
They are waiting on you to give them what they don't have. A different
perspective on life, a glimpse at something beautiful, a respite from
daily chaos, that only you through a torn world can see.
Maybe the man was just a homeless stranger wandering the streets. Maybe
he was more than that.

Maybe he was sent by a power that is great and
wise, to minister to a soul too comfortable in themselves.

Maybe God looked down, called an Angel, dressed him like a bum, then said, "go minister to that man cleaning the car, that man needs help."
Don't we all?

Chermed not only a teacher

2007-05-05T16:14:00.001+08:00

“What would life be without teachers?” That is the question I always keep asking myself when I think of my favorite teacher. Sometimes, I imagine how my life would be if I had no teachers. I would not be what I am now.

I have many teachers that I like. They all teach me nicely and have made me what I am now and I’m very grateful for them. Yet, above all those teachers, I have one teacher that is so different from them. I just met her this year and so far she has become my favorite. I call her different because she has the characteristics so unique. She has the qualities that pupils really admire.

Her passion for her craft is beyond compare. She’s so energetic that despite the bulk of work and days of training she still manage to handle us, be with us and laugh with us. She is like a friend and mother not just to me, but to all my fellow writers. In our trainings, she gave us time to play and used to tell us jokes.

I had just transferred from other school this year. Without hesitation, she talked to me saying she wanted me to join the journalism training. I felt great then. I sensed that she believes in me. When she asked me to write short essay, I was surprised to hear from her “Ina, it’s good.“ “You can be a potential writer.

Want to join the Saturday trainings?” I was so happy that day, that it started the spark of my interest in journalism.

Since then, I always spent time with her. She makes me laugh a lot as she has sense of humor. I’m so comfortable when she is around. I never feel sad, in fact there is really no dull moment with her. She really makes our day (our training day especially) complete for she is not strict but you will be amazed- she disciplines us in her own unique way.

There are many things I and my other fellow writers have learned from her. She taught us how to write, (I learned how to write feature article, the category she assigned to me for the contest) to believe in ourselves, never think negative when it comes to contest, and most of all, she always reminds us to pray- to have our own devotional prayer, which we all believe is the greatest weapon we could have. Moreover, she teaches us positive values like behaving properly and doing good in our work. Hearing those words from her, I feel very happy and loved that I hope she will always be my teacher so that I can always be with her.

She is truly an ideal teacher to me and my fellow writers. A teacher who never get tired - training us, giving us advises and moral support. One can easily notice her, especially when we are in a contest…she is one of those teachers who are like mother to all the 14 young writers. She sees to it that each of us has the much needed confidence before we enter the contest room. She lets us feel that we are all ready to fight the big battle.

If she is important to us, much more, we are important to her. I can really say it, because there was a day, when she told us that we are her ‘precious jewels.’ I can feel the sincerity of her words, because we feel that we are her children every time we are with her.

When I won in the Regional Contest, I felt very happy. I know its God’s reward for all the hard works and efforts we exerted. Joining the NSPC means representing the school, the region …and oh! spending time again with my trainer. I know, she will train me again with all the enthusiasm and energy. I know, more than ever, she will be there always believing in my potential as a writer.

Truly, Chermed is an ideal teacher-trainer to me- to all of us, who, in our elementary life, had the opportunity to be under her care… yes… she’s not only a teacher – but a friend, confidant, counselor, mother, and a mentor… an extraordinary mentor to all of us.

NOBODY Deserves this...

2007-05-05T16:13:00.000+08:00

> > Girl: Hey
> >
> > Boy: What?
> >
> > Girl: I really like you. And I... I
> > think I'm falling in love with you.
> >
> > Boy: Ok...
> >
> > Girl: What do you mean by ok?
> >
> > Boy: I don't like you like that...
> >
> > Girl: Why not?
> >
> > Boy: I can't tell you... maybe
another
> > time...
> >
> > From then on, the girl kept asking
> > the boy "Why not?" whenever she saw
> > him,
> > and he kept answering the same
answer
> > of
> > "I'll tell you later."
> >
> > Finally the girl got fed up.
> >
> > Girl: I'm tired of this! Tell me
why
> > you don't like me!
> >
> > Boy: Do you really wanna know why?
> >
> > Girl: Yes!
> >
> > Boy: It's because you're uglier
than
> > ANYTHING!..What's the point of
going
> > out
> > with someone when they're not
pretty?!
> >
> > Girl: But... I...
> >
> > Boy: Just shut up and leave me
alone!
> >
> > The boy leaves and the girl sat
there
> > alone, crying her heart out. Then
her
> > cell phone rang.
> >
> > Girl: Hello?
> >
> > Mom: Sweetheart? I want you to go
home,
> > ok? I'll be home from work in a few
> > hours.
> >
> > Girl: Alright Mom.
> >
> > Mom: I love you.
> >
> > Girl: I love you too, Mom.
> >
> > Mom: Bye Bye.
> >
> > Girl: Bye
> >
> > The girl heads home and once she
got
> > there, she went straight in the
> > bathroom
> > and looked at herself in the
mirror.
> >
> > Girl: I'm not pretty enough...
> >
> > She set to work, knowing fully well
> > what she was going to do.
> >
> > 2 hours later, her Mom came home
and
> > heard the bath water running. She
went
> > upstairs to find the hallway
> > flooded..so
> > she knocked on the door.
> >
> > Mom: Honey? Are you alright?
> >
> > She opened the door and was shocked
> > at the site.
> > The bath was overflowing onto the
> > floor and the water was tinted
red. She
> > walked
> > over to see what was inside and
> > screamed. There, her little girl
was
> > lying with cuts all over her face
and
> > wrists.
> >
> > Her Mom backed away and was going
to
> > run
> > to call the police when something
> > caught
> > her eye...
> >
> > On the
> > mirror said.. am I pretty enough
now?
> >
> > No one deserves to be told that by
> > someone they love. If you find it
> > messed
> > up then tell everyone you know
how you appreciate them in their
> >own way
> >
> > A person's appearance doesn't
count.
> > What counts is their heart inside
of
> > them and
> > their personality.
> > No one wants to be told they're not
> > good enough...

the ANT and the Contact lens

2007-05-05T16:11:00.002+08:00

Brenda was almost halfway to the top of the tremendous granite cliff. She was standing on a ledge where she was taking a breather during this, her first rock climb. As she rested there, the safety rope snapped against her eye and knocked out her contact lens. "Great", she thought. "Here I am on a rock ledge, hundreds of feet from the bottom and hundreds of feet to the top of this cliff, and now my sight is blurry."

She looked and looked, hoping that somehow it had landed on the ledge. But it just wasn't there.

She felt the panic rising in her, so she began praying. She prayed for calm, and she prayed that she may find her contact lens.

When she got to the top, a friend examined her eye and her clothing for the lens, but it was not to be found. Although she was calm now that she was at the top, she was saddened because she could not clearly see across the range of mountains. She thought of the bible verse "The eyes of the Lord run to and fro throughout the whole earth."

She thought, "Lord, You can see all these mountains. You know every stone and leaf, and You know exactly where my contact lens is. Please help me."

Later, when they had hiked down the trail to the bottom of the cliff they met another party of climbers just starting up the face of the cliff. One of them shouted out, "Hey, you guys! Anybody lose a contact lens?"

Well, that would be startling enough, but you know why the climber saw it? An ant was moving slowly across a twig on the face of the rock, carrying it!

The story doesn't end there. Brenda's father is a cartoonist. When she told him the incredible story of the ant, the prayer, and the contact lens, he drew a cartoon of an ant lugging that contact lens with the caption, "Lord, I don't know why You want me to carry this thing. I can't eat it, and it's awfully heavy. But if this is what You want me to do, I'll carry it for You."

I think it would do all of us some good to say, "God, I don't know why You want me to carry this load. I can see no good in it and it's awfully heavy. But, if You want me to carry it, I will."

God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

Yes, I do love GOD. He is my source of existence and my Savior. He keeps me functioning
each and every day Without Him, I am nothing, but with Him....I can do all things through Christ which strengthens me. (Phil. 4:13)

This is a simple test. If you love GOD and are not ashamed of all the marvelous things He has done for you, send this to ten people and the person who sent it to you.

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"You Gave Me A Mountain"

a BUTTERFLY

2007-05-05T16:11:00.001+08:00

A man found a cocoon of a butterfly. One day a small opening appeared. He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours as it struggled to force its body through that little hole. Then it seemed to stop making any progress. It appeared as if it had gotten as far as it could, and it could go no further.

So the man decided to help the butterfly. He took a pair of scissors and snipped off the remaining bit of the cocoon.

The butterfly then emerged easily. But it had a swollen body and small, shriveled wings.

The man continued to watch the butterfly because he expected that, at any moment, the wings would enlarge and expand to be able to support the body, which would contract in time.

Neither happened! In fact, the butterfly spent the rest of its life crawling around with a swollen body and shriveled wings. It never was able to fly.

What the man, in his kindness and haste, did not understand was that the restricting cocoon and the struggle required for the butterfly to get through the tiny opening were God's way of forcing fluid from the body of the butterfly into its wings so that it would be ready for flight once it achieved its freedom from the cocoon.

Sometimes struggles are exactly what we need in our lives. If God allowed us to go through our lives without any obstacles, it would cripple us.

We would not be as strong as what we could have been. We could never fly!

I asked for Strength.........
And God gave me Difficulties to make me strong.

I asked for Wisdom.........
And God gave me Problems to solve.

I asked for Prosperity.........
And God gave me Brain and Brawn to work.

I asked for Courage.........
And God gave me Danger to overcome.

I asked for Love.........
And God gave me Troubled people to help.

I asked for Favors.........
And God gave me Opportunities.

I received nothing I wanted ........
I received everything I needed!

Love and Time

2007-05-05T16:10:00.000+08:00

Once upon a time, there was an island where all the feelings lived: Happiness, Sadness, Knowledge, and all of the others, including Love. One day it was announced to the feelings that the island would sink, so all constructed boats and left. Except for Love.

Love was the only one who stayed. Love wanted to hold out until the last possible moment.

When the island had almost sunk, Love decided to ask for help.

Richness was passing by Love in a grand boat. Love said,
"Richness, can you take me with you?"
Richness answered, "No, I can't. There is a lot of gold and silver in my boat. There is no place here for you."

Love decided to ask Vanity who was also passing by in a beautiful vessel. "Vanity, please help me!"
"I can't help you, Love. You are all wet and might damage my boat," Vanity answered.

Sadness was close by so Love asked, "Sadness, let me go with you."
"Oh . . . Love, I am so sad that I need to be by myself!"

Happiness passed by Love, too, but she was so happy that she did not even hear when Love called her.

Suddenly, there was a voice, "Come, Love, I will take you." It was an elder. So blessed and overjoyed, Love even forgot to ask the elder where they were going. When they arrived at dry land, the elder went her own way. Realizing how much was owed the elder,

Love asked Knowledge, another elder, "Who Helped me?"
"It was Time," Knowledge answered.
"Time?" asked Love. "But why did Time help me?"
Knowledge smiled with deep wisdom and answered, "Because only Time is capable of understanding how valuable Love is."

DIFFERENT in many ways but connected (just for my TotalG irl Family)

2007-05-05T16:09:00.002+08:00

Different in many ways but connected

Different cities,different names
Different schools, friends, families
But similar in one thing
They're connected but still hidden

We develop a strong bond
Which we despise to sever
For that bond is friendship
That is truely valued

Problems,dillemas, drama
You can talk to them openly
ANd trust them with your secret
Hidden so deep inside your heart

They're like family to me
Even if personally I can't see them
But I know they are there
Hidden by their screen names

Is it?!?

2007-05-05T16:09:00.001+08:00

Is It Just a Dream?

I want to let you know
That I love you so
You've been in my dreams
Where everything is as real as it seems

Ever since I met you
You've been in my head
With me listening to everything you said
I love you so much!

I dream of going dancing
With you in the moonlight
Twirl me all around
Under the stars

But may I ask
A question so deep
Yet it is simple
"Do you love me?"

ROLLERCOASTER Love

2007-05-05T16:08:00.001+08:00

In the dark all alone
Trying to get rid of the feeling
That you've never known,
Confuse, sad and afraid
Waiting for someone for me to save...

Everyting I do
Is still not enough for you
You are all that I've wanted
And I know I've don so much
But your taking me for granted!

You're so far
And I don't know where you are
Still hoping for your presence
'Coz I still have the feeling
And to me you still have sense

And now you're back again
Wanting to be with me
And not in van
Still startled because your here
And now I know that you'll always be near

Why did GOD created teachers???

2007-05-05T16:06:00.002+08:00

When God created teachers,
He gave us special friends
To help us understand His world
And truly comprehend
The beauty and the wonder
Of everything we see,
And become a better person
With each discovery.

When God created teachers,
He gave us special guides
To show us ways in which to grow
So we can all decide
How to live and how to do
What's right instead of wrong,
To lead us so that we can lead
And learn how to be strong.

Why God created teachers,
In His wisdom and His grace,
Was to help us learn to make our world
A better, wiser place.

Life still has a meaning

2007-05-05T16:06:00.001+08:00

Life Still Has A Meaning

If there is a future there is time for mending-
Time to see your troubles coming to an ending.

Life is never hopeless however great your sorrow-
If you're looking forward to a new tomorrow.

If there is time for wishing then there is time for hoping-
When through doubt and darkness you are blindly groping.

Though the heart be heavy and hurt you may be feeling-
If there is time for praying there is time for healing.

So if through your window there is a new day breaking-
Thank God for the promise, though mind and soul be aching,

If with harvest over there is grain enough for gleaning-
There is a new tomorrow and life still has meaning.

-Ang Samahan-

2007-05-05T16:05:00.001+08:00

-Ang Samahan-

Unang pasukan ng kami'y magkita
nagkakwentuhan at nagkakilala
nagpalagayan ng loob sa isa't-isa
hanggang isang araw naging magbabarkada

Naging matatag na isang samahan
na ang bawat isa'y di alam ang dahilan
sa bawat pagsubok ay nagtutlungan
hanggang ang bawat isa'y makakita ng kalunasan

Ngunit nangangamba ang magbabarkada
na sa paglipas ng oras ang ngiti mawawala
dahil makakamtan na ang pagtatapos na tinatamasa
at haharap muli sa panibagong simula

Ngunit kahit magkagayon ang aming kapalaran
nasa puso parin namin ang aming samahan
mga ala-ala na aming dinaanan
na para sa amin ay isang kayamanan...

Why do I love you?!?

2007-05-05T16:04:00.000+08:00

I love you,
not only for what you are
but for what I am
whem I am with you

I love you,
not only for what
you made of yourself
but for what you are making of me

I love you,
for ignoring the possibilties
of the fool in me
and for laying firm hold
of the possibilities for good

Why do I love you?

I love you,
for closing your eyes
to the discord
and for adding to the music in me
by worship listening

I love you because you,
You are helping to make
the lumber of my life
not a tavern
but a temple
and out of the words
of my every day
not a reproach
but a song

I love you,
because you have done
more than any creed
to make me happy

You have done it,
without a word
without a touch
without a sigh
You have done it
Just by being yourself

After all,
Perhaps that is what LOVE means...

A real Teacher's Impact

2007-05-05T16:03:00.000+08:00

hope our teachers can find time to reflect once more on their noble mission to touch the hearts and effect changes on the lives of children under their care.

Jean Thompson stood in front of her fifth-grade class on the very first day of school in the fall and told the children a lie. Like most teachers, she looked at her pupils and said that she loved them all the same, that she would treat them all alike. And that was impossible because there in front of her, slumped in his seat on the third row, was a little black boy named Teddy Stoddard.

Mrs. Thompson had watched Teddy the year before and noticed he didn't play well with the other children, that his clothes were unkempt and that he constantly needed a bath.

And Teddy was unpleasant. It got to the point during the first few months that she would actually take delight in marking his papers with a broad red pen, making bold X's and then marking the F at the top of the paper biggest of all.

Because Teddy was a sullen little boy, no one else seemed to enjoy him, either.

At the school where Mrs. Thompson taught, she was required to review each child's records and put Teddy's off until last. When she opened his file, she was in for a surprise.

His first-grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is a bright, inquisitive child with a ready laugh. He does his work neatly and has good manners...he is a joy to be around."

His second-grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is an excellent student well-liked by his classmates, but he is troubled because his mother has a terminal illness and life at home must be a struggle."

His third-grade teacher wrote, "Teddy continues to work hard but his mother's death has been hard on him. He tries to do his best but his father doesn't show much interest and his home life will soon affect him if some steps aren't taken."

Teddy's fourth-grade teacher wrote, "Teddy is withdrawn and doesn't show much interest in school. He doesn't have many friends and sometimes sleeps in class. He is tardy and could become a problem."

By now Mrs. Thompson realized the problem but Christmas was coming fast. It was all she could do, with the school play and all, until the day before the holidays began and she was suddenly forced to focus on Teddy Stoddard.

Her children brought her presents, all in beautiful ribbon and bright paper, except for Teddy's, which was clumsily wrapped in the heavy, brown paper of a scissored grocery bag.

Mrs. Thompson took pains to open it in the middle of the other presents. Some of the children started to laugh when she found a rhinestone bracelet with some of the stones missing, and a bottle that was one-quarter full of cologne. She stifled the children's laughter when she exclaimed how pretty the bracelet was, putting it on, and dabbing some of the perfume behind the other wrist.

Teddy Stoddard stayed behind just long enough to say, "Mrs. Thompson, today you smelled just like my mom used to." After the children left she cried for at least an hour.

On that very day, she quit teaching reading, and writing, and speaking. Instead, she began to teach children. Jean Thompson paid particular attention to one they all called "Teddy."

As she worked with him, his mind seemed to come alive. The more she encouraged him, the faster he responded. On days there would be an important test, Mrs. Thompson would remember that cologne. By the end of the year he had become one of the smartest children in the class and...well, he had also become the "pet" of the teacher who had once vowed to love all of her children exactly the same.

A year later she found a note under her door, from Teddy, telling her that of all the teachers he'd had in elementary school, she was his favorite.

Six years went by before she got another note from Teddy. He then wrote that he had finished high school, third in his class, and she was still his favorite teacher of all time.

Four years after that, she got another letter, saying that while things had been tough at times, he'd stayed in school, had stuck with it, and would graduate from college with the highest of honors. He assured Mrs. Thompson she was still his favorite teacher.

Then four more years passed and yet another letter came. This time he explained that after he got his bachelor's degree, he decided to go a little further. The letter explained that she was still his favorite teacher but that now his name was a little longer. The letter was signed, Theodore F. Stoddard, M.D.

The story doesn't end there. You see, there was yet another letter that Spring. Teddy said he'd met this girl and was to be married. He explained that his father had died a couple of years ago and he was wondering . . . well, if Mrs. Thompson might agree to sit in the pew usually reserved for the mother of the groom. And guess what, she wore that bracelet, the one with several rhinestones missing. And I bet on that special day, Jean Thompson smelled just like . . . well, just like the way Teddy remembered his mother smelling on their last Christmas together.

My favorite song

2007-05-05T16:02:00.000+08:00

Bring me to life

how can you see into my eyes like open doors
leading you down into my core
where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold
until you find it there and lead it back home wake me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become

now that i know what i'm without
you can't just leave me
breathe into me and make me real
bring me to life

wake me up inside
wake me up inside
call my name and save me from the dark
bid my blood to run
before i come undone
save me from the nothing i've become
bring me to life

frozen inside without your touch without your love darling only you are the life among the dead

all of this time I can't believe I couldn't see
kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
got to open my eyes to everything
without a thought without a voice without a soul
don't let me die here
there must be something more
bring me to life

John Felix Anthony Cena (Bio)

2007-05-05T15:57:00.000+08:00

Straight up and in your face, the fan favorite rapper and WWE Champion John Cena has made quite the notorious reputation for himself in WWE by speaking the truth and backing it up in the ring with his own style of ruckus. Pimping baggy jean shorts and a throwback jersey, Cena will often get amped up signaling the end for his victims by pumping up his kicks leading to him dropping his trademark “you can't see me” catchphrase en route to the FU.

A street brawler by definition, Cena is always up for a fight against anyone who steps to him. Of course, for those who step foot in the ring to lock up with Cena or do battle on the microphone, they best prepare to get burned by this RAW Superstar’s blistering, edgy rap lyrics that often scorch the egos of those who dare challenge the rebellious rapper. Cena refuses to back down from any man who gets in his way.

His latest challenger has been WWE’s only Olympic Gold Medalist, Kurt Angle. Angle, with the support of RAW General Manager Eric Bischoff, has done everything he could to soften up the Champ. The two finally met up at Unforgiven in what was perhaps Cena’s toughest test to date. Angle took Cena to the limits and applied his vicious Ankle Lock. Cena refused to quit, however, and eventually escaped the hold. With the referee seemingly incapacitated, Bischoff was trying to give the Championship belt to Angle to use as a weapon. The belt ended up in the Champ’s hands, however, as he blasted Angle across the face. The referee was jus coming-to, however, and saw the illegal act and called for the disqualification. Angle had picked up the win, but Cena was still the Champ. These two appear to be on a collision course to meet up again for the most coveted prize on RAW, but if you ask Cena, he doesn’t care. He’ll simply say, “If you want some, come get some!”

Perhaps, much of Cena’s success can be attributed to his unparalleled fan support. Maybe no WWE Superstar can relate to the fans quite like John Cena.

After all, before Cena became a household name in sports-entertainment, before he became an accomplished rapper and before he grabbed the leading role in a major motion picture, he was a WWE fan.

Cena came to live events, created homemade signs and even collected WWE action figures. All in hope of one day performing in the ring himself.

And Cena's dream came through in resounding fashion at WrestleMania 21 when he defeated JBL for the WWE Championship. In the Staples Center, the same arena where he watched so many matches as a fan, Cena won the WWE Championship.

A former football star at Springfield College, Cena was addicted to training and music growing up. After a successful bodybuilding career, he began his wrestling journey not long after he left college. The rest is history.

Cena is a multi-time United States Champion and current WWE Champion. He began his first U.S. Championship reign in amazing fashion by defeating Big Show at WrestleMania XX.

In June of 2002, Cena had one of the more memorable debuts in SmackDown history. After Kurt Angle challenged anyone backstage to a match, Cena, a young wrestler looking for a big break, made his way to the ring.

Angle would win that match, but Cena took him to the brink, impressing everyone in attendance that night, including the entire SmackDown! roster. In his relatively short time with WWE, Cena has already built up quite a resume.

By April of 2003, Cena was already in his first pay-per-view main event, battling Brock Lesnar for the WWE Championship at Backlash.

He defended his United States Championship in a thrilling best-of-five series with Booker T in the fall of 2004. In the 2005 Royal Rumble, Cena was the last Superstar to be eliminated, as RAW's Batista went on to emerge victorious.

At No Way Out, Cena defeated Angle in the final of the No. 1 Contender's Tournament, landing Cena a spot opposite JBL for the WWE Championship at WrestleMania 21.

Cena, of course, went on to defeat JBL at WrestleMania 21 as well as defend his new WWE Championship against his nemesis in a brutal I Quit Match at Judgment Day. Cena was on a rool and it looked as though he would be ruling SmackDown! for a long time to come.

But WWE fans everywhere were shocked to learn that the WWE Champion was the first Superstar selected in the 2005 Draft Lottery, sending the Dr. of Thuganomics over to RAW. Cena, the fighting champion that he is, told the entire RAW roster, "If you want some, come get some."

Christian and Chris Jericho answered the challenge and the two vied for the WWE Championship against Cena in a Triple Threat Match at Vengeance. Cena once again came out on top as he pinned Christian after an FU.

General Manager Eric Bischoff, enraged at Cena’s disrespect for his authority, got behind Jericho and did everything he could to try and make Y2J the next WWE Champion. No matter how much he stacked the deck against Cena, though, Jericho could not overcome the Dr. of Thuganomics. In fact, Jericho even lost a Loser Leaves RAW match, leaving him unemployed.

Through all of his success, Cena has never forgotten his roots, which began in the bleachers watching the likes of Hollywood Hogan, Ultimate Warrior, Shawn Michaels and Bret Hart.

He refers to his fans as members of his "Chain Gang." Together, he figures, they can't lose. And so far, the combination of their support and his talent, have made John Cena one of the top Superstars around.

Avil's Bio

2007-05-05T15:55:00.000+08:00

Unapologetically original. Unabashedly in your face. Avril Lavigne's 2002 debut Let Go gave young women a defiant voice and set it to music they could rock out to. Fourteen million albums and eight Grammy nominations later, the Canadian chanteuse returns with Under My Skin but if you're expecting a whole lot of the same, you've got another thing coming. This is not a girl who rests on her laurels.
Under My Skin opens with the dramatic tracks "Take Me Away" and "Together," which set the scene for the kick-ass guitars and radio-ready chorus of "Don't Tell Me," a song of willful female empowerment that picks up where "Complicated" left off. From there it's a one-two punch of three-chord guitar licks ("He Wasn't") and head-bopping optimism ("Who Knows") alongside swirling, brooding melodies ("Freak Out") and moody tracks ("Forgotten," "Nobody's Home") that reveal a darker side of Avril Lavigne.

"I grew up so much in the past two years," admits the Napanee, Ontario, native. "I've been through a lot, I've learned a lot, and experienced a lot both good and bad. These songs are about all of that, and each is very personal to me." Working with producers, Butch Walker (of the Marvelous 3), Raine Maida (of Our Lady Peace), Don Gilmore (Linkin Park, Pearl Jam), Avril co-wrote the dozen introspective songs on Under My Skin in near secrecy. "I'd just come off my world tour and got back to Toronto and was writing right away," the 19-year-old says. "I had no idea what I was going to do. No one did. People wondered if I'd run out of things to write about, but it was the opposite."

After a lunch date with fellow Canadian singer-songwriter Chantal Kreviazuk turned into a major chick-bonding session, Avril and Chantal sat down to write. The chemistry was ineffable. "We got together one night and all of a sudden we had a song," she says. "No one knew what I was up to, not my management, not my label." The duo got together the next night and wrote another song. "We did that for two weeks and wrote 12 songs." Momentum took over and by summer Avril was moving into Chantal and her husband Raine Maida's Malibu house to record. "I was only off my tour for a couple of weeks, and I was ready to record," Avril recalls.

The California air provided a needed escape from Avril's frantic life. "It was a great time for me, living out there, being out of the public eye, and having my independence. And my friendship with Chantal evolved into one of the best I've ever had." Chantal and Avril would spend all night in the studio perfecting the songs. During the day, Avril learned the city by driving to and from the studio and wherever she needed to be. No photos, no interviews, no pressure. Eventually they recorded most of the songs in Raine's studio, and those songs appear unaltered on Under My Skin. The rest of the tracks, co-written with her guitarist Evan Taubenfeld (and one track with former Evanescence guitarist Ben Moody), were cut just up the road. "I was involved in every aspect of making this record. I'm very hands-on," she says. "I knew how I wanted the drums, the guitar tones, and the structures to be. I understand the whole process so much better this time because I've been through it. I'm really picky with my sound."

Picking favorites out of her 12 hand-made babies is another matter. "They all mean so much to me, but I love ‘Together,’ which is all about being in a relationship and knowing it's not right. It's a song that basically says, it's not working out honey." A couple of other tracks mine dysfunctional relationships and have hooks as catchy as those on "Complicated" and real-life narratives (like "Sk8er Boi"), but what truly underscores Avril's growth are the more positive tracks, such as "Who Knows" and "Take Me Away." "I guess that's just the way that I am now," admits the former supposed attitude junkie. Deep, piano-driven tracks like "Together" and "Forgotten" reflect Avril's growth, maturity, and change since the release of Let Go. "I'm happy with what I'm doing and have faith that everything is going to work out for the best." She's also found a feminine side to offset her well-publicized tomboyishness. "I'm such a chick. I'm a hopeless romantic, and surprisingly old-fashioned," Avril laughs. "That's why I wrote a song about not giving it up to just any guy ["Don't Tell Me"]." Girly quirks aside, Avril's anxious to get the show on the road. "It feels so good to be singing new songs," she says. "I feel refreshed and I'm looking forward to the next thing."

Optimistic or melancholic, Avril's two-year wild-ride on the rock-star express has shaped her world view and taught her a whole lot about balance. "The songs on Under My Skin are definitely deeper than those on Let Go," she says, "But I still love a good pop song. I'm basically just a girl who likes to write, who likes to rock out, and who wants music to be a part of my life forever."

She's also just a girl with a bell-clear voice and the ability to bottle youthful anguish and enthusiasm into tidy, infectious songs. Avril Lavigne's Under My Skin is sure to get under yours.

Me?!?

2007-05-05T15:54:00.001+08:00

Hmmpp..
They say I'm a bit naughty person..no not a bit a whole lot!! but I say Count all the time I smile and I should tell you that ,that is how many sorrows and trials I've been going through..
I'm still wearing a mask up to NOW!..I'm still hiding the truth to everyone.. and I don't know Why!

haaayyzz.. All I can say is.. THAT"S LIFE!!

I'm still a student I just finished my 1st year Highschool class.. ;) I'm a 13 year old gurl..
A player of volleyball and basketball.. :D
and also a journalist in our school..a writer at the same time the Photojournalist.. :D

shutup 'n' read

ready, set, go !

summer bummer

home at last

bye

contented

friends

what if ?

bestfriend

happy and contented :)

together again :)

apologizing

just a random day :))

Intramurals week !!

sick and tired

20 things about LOVE

tiring and happy saturday!

typical sunday..Ü

CMLI - an experience I won't forget

BIZZY week!

hectic...

lovin' life

ciao!

APOLOGY !

doodles..

Sunday, May 4,'08

Saturday, May 3,'08

Friday, May 2,'08

Night of May 1,'08

Thursday, May 1 '08

Wednesday, April 30 '08 =)

Previous Happenings

a lot of things have happened this past few days. :| [whew!]

Zaitooth! pulis panglalamunan!

A Wise Act =)

Play Fest

when someone calls you a slut

Tensionado

where will I meet my future boyfriend?

my CUTIE

Akira Sendoh

Secrets In Our Lives... <3

Blogthings Things. 4 my blog.. "dUh?!".. <3

Boring Tuesday.... <3

Pet pet pets to the rescue.. <3

They Visited ME! <3 *aw.so sweet*

Flip-flops are on the way <3

Brat Bratz.. *new dollies release* <3 so cute

Get involve!

Song Interpretation

Funky Bangles <3

The truth behind the world of GLITTERS.. <3

Glamour DIY part 3

Homemade Chocolate Lip Gloss <3

Glamour DIY part 2

Glamour DIY part 1

gloss,gloss,gloss... mwa <3

NEWS UPDATE & Announcement

School Mode (sorry!!)

Happy Birthday

My athlete days.....

My SATURDAY...

I'm HOME

YEHEY day!!! 2

YEHEY day!!!

Hayy.. BUHAY nga naman...

Anu Bei' anG KapAl Mu!!!

BUHAY TEACHER PART 2

BUHAY TEACHER PART 1

Being a moderator...

Found my TRUE FRIENDS

My SUMMER Vacation this 2007

What should I do!!!????

For me friends are....

My MOM had only one eye

Children are....

HOW TO START A GREAT DAY

Coz' LIFE is too SHORT

the WINDOW

Don't we all?

They Visited ME! <3 aw.so sweet

Brat Bratz.. new dollies release <3 so cute